Sunday, June 19, 2011

start on blog again.... (for reflextion purpose)

Start on my blog again as long time I just willing to post all non of my feeling things such as food.... travel place...family..
Today onwards I wish to write somethings bout what I learn and it is from my inner part... as a reflection of the day. Just query why I going to start my blogging life so sudden? Well, it inspired from a counseling lecturer as she told us, blogging actually help us to reflex what we do and as we are growing it can be a memories for our self when you read back your blog few years back.

Haiz...Actually is hard to express my feeling here... but as I heard a pastor said, someone that had prepare to love some one must be able to express themselves to others. Some one not able to express mean they are hardly to open themselves to share with others what they feel and for sure that others will not able to understand them and can't really know what he feel and of course we can't exchange feeling and everything is just guessing that's why misunderstand is happening around.
I think I'm not the one that can't share around, and I think non of my friends will think that I'm quiet type but just hope that some one I shared is able to help me keep it secret as I wish sometimes for some pivarate feelings.

I wish I'm not in love anyway... Wish all people that remind me around is just kidding with me... but recently I really sense somethings was wrong...I started have abnormal action, this also a reason that I wish to reflex myself often as now start blogging and I started to share my feeling to some close friends....is really confuse...
Maybe He is confusing me anyways.... just let it be spontaneously and let it to God...
I also cant control myself not to think anyways, so sometimes will feel overwhelmed as I really scare to have a 1st move as well.
Can someone read his heart and tell me what's going on? I know him well as his personality, character, daily living, families...just his inner heart...I still can't really read it...It's so blur...I'm wondering was he can't read what's I'm thinking as well? or I still giving him a wrong hints? or another way he was just comfort with what we are now? Oh gosh.... feeling is killing me right now....~can't really have logically thinking right now...is time for me to rest...(~to be continues)

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