Today my purse is bleeding..... Totally I spend about RM 369 for car service..... another RM36 for petrol .... for parent total RM450.... bill for handphone usually we will give RM100 per month although I'm not spending much on that.... RM50 for internet access fees... RM 400 for car loan OMG..... Keep bleeding ~~keep keep bleeding hearts..... 1 day settle all this kinda statement... total 1.4k.... *faint...
Besides, today is my mum's birthday. I buy a cake for her too...Everything is all about $$.... I'm poor start on today....Damn poor.............
Today when I awake is been afternoon bout 2pm. Saw my HP message "he" is leaving me a sms...as well as Joseph had a misscall when I in deep sleep. After I reply "his" sms I also drop a sms for Joseph. Finally he called me, still the same things he is telling me as well as sound frustrated that I'm still wondering to accept him. But for me, for this moment I'm sure I won't have a feeling to like hum as well as know him. Hope ain't stress up myself, I honestly told him what I feel. He seem angry and ended our conversation just like this, make me feel bad...he is bad temper man...honestly. for goodness said, I still drop a last message for him as below~ I always believe True love takes time to develop. And honestly tell u.I scare u more then that. U are quite easy get temper. Less patient. I scare I won't having good patient to tolerate that. JS few times we chat but I still can know this. Sorry I'm so straight forward. Dun say I'm not giving u chance.but I'm very sure in future when u get ur another partner n then u will get Wat I mean. As a sis advice u, dun too rush to search for a partner n tell her u like her, she will walk away from u soon. Get time to know her n know what she think and as u will get use to her life and u will easily get her heart.~~~ After this message I hope he will be more mature in thinking, and as I know I won't get his message or phone call future. That what I expected.haha...is good news to me as well. Today is mummy's birthday, we plan to have a celebration at autocity restaurant "xian ding Wei" hope mummy will like it... Will post sine delicious pic as later I goes on..
Today like usual after night straight away back my home sweet home and sleep....sleep until my dad keep calling me to take my lunch that he brought for me...chee cheong fun. When I take that it seem tasteless to me.I'm having running nose and flu badly. Bout 11am "he" sms me, I really not realize he is there to chat with me. Until I'm awake is bout 5 hours later. We chat through msn as well as sms...quite cheerful i am... But when come to work...everythg become worse...busy working life...meet some so call selfish people....I hate it... Why still having kinda selfish people around this world... So much frustrated with them...1st time going to scold the clinic nurse for the brainless action...maybe due to overstress of my staff...some of them damn selfish... I'm not looking down someone that differ races, just they always make me feel bad when working together... U and my job is differ, u get less paid but don't mean I need to work for you too... Damn......hate it....~~~ miss my bed right now...headache...sleepy...flu....very uncomfortable...
Today as usual I need to get to work. Working on Sunday is killing me. Unable to attend Sunday service and also, the important things is my dearest “bro” and sister is watching transformer today. It brings my mood swing during the day. By the time confirmed with my sister that they plan to watch transformer today, I sudden feel quite down, even work also still the same. I keep nagging with my colleague that I wanna watch that movie, anyone can accompany go with. My colleague all pity me and plan to watch with me, but unable to set a date yet. Then after work I date 1 of my colleague go hang out with me as I feel I’m quite down with my mood. She suggest me to stay overnight in her place so that I can hang out with them more late.
After settle my parent with a call for them, I plan to stay with my colleague for 1 night. As my mood is not well and I hope I can just ignore to see and heard what I not prefer and goes on with what I feel. I just go with a pair of shirt n pants… and go gurney….
Shopping….I ♥ it so much. Just within an hour I brought a hair band, a shirt ~ from MNG, and a long skirt… it spend me about RM 78… OMG…. But I love this so much. After that have my ice-cream again, then is the main point ~~~~OVERTIME, Gurney.
When reach overtime, wow… many youngster is seating inside to have their “drink”. Quite good feel when get in, just the thing I hate is the smoke… Quite few of the smokers there, but still acceptable. I ordered a drink, Lega… beers, it quite smooth…I ♥ it…
“he” still not reply my sms and I still waiting… At my colleague~ kelly’s house. I online fb checking is it he is replying my message or got online or not, but still none. After that we put on a mask like a pillow talk…. I tell what I feel until she get into deep sleep…LOL… funny…
Next day, my hp still is no incoming sms…
When I awake, Kelly has dress up. I faster dress up myself waiting for another 3 more colleague for breakfast at my favorite stall~ ROTI BAKAR.
After that, we went home… I saw “he” is msn me since morning. “He” told me transformer is nice. As I told him, I know so friends just can be till Saturday night… not best friend something like that and start on our argument. He thought I’m so kiddies, just cause of the movie I need to be like this. I keep argue with “him”, finally I cried out…. With all tears and heart breaks, I start on this is just want to let him feel what I feel, just no other meaning. “He” taught I’m accusing him as he fault. OMG…. The situation become so worse…I’m so sad bout that…and keep apologist and I’m not that mean, even “he” also told sis that what happen on me. He is not the one who suggests watching the movie yesterday. But as sis told me “he” is the one and with Jeff makes this suggestion. OMG… is little misunderstanding there. Haiz… I think I had been left over a bad impression on him. God please lead me. Even like a person also suffer like this…. Damn….
After that we chat like usual, he finally told me that why he didn’t reply my sms and he on msn is because he know I’m not working today and purposely on msn to chat with me easier, make me sinner and bad… and I do told him that I from sat waiting his sms till today… OMG… terrible…
Is time for us to cool down…. And is my sleep time….bed time… nitez….
Besides, today is my mum's birthday. I buy a cake for her too...Everything is all about $$....
