I'm not sure was that written to me, but the chances was around 80% as I guess, but I really hope what he mention about "her" was not "me".
I really feel sorry if that "her" was mention that was me. I really can't do anything and change anything in this moment. I'm very sure for this moment, we were not "right" for each other. Honestly, I won't playing or kidding on a relationship. If I want to start on a relationship, I will make sure the criteria he has fulfill as what I had pray to God for the signal. I don't need a "boy" to accompany me to do anything for example movie, shopping... I can do it on my own. I can watch a movie in a cinema alone and shopping as well. I just need a "man" who can really make me act as a helper as what God's create a women for.
Honestly I really admire pastor JC , uncle Alan and my CG leader Chester, they are a great man that who can serve God first before anything. I still remember what Chester told me before, he has told his wife Yu ling that he will serve the Lord and put God as the first priority before her. He may have lesser time in spending with her, but yet he wish to love God first than to love her as well. I really admire a man who can really put God as his first priority and we can serve my Lord and God together as I'm same as will just love him after God. I will make sure I put my God as the priority before anyone and anything.
I'm still learning to be a women that a "man" need as a helper not leader. I wish he could lead me especially in spiritually growth. Now for this moment, I do not have enough time to serve my Lord my God and my time was packed with assignment, serving, working and family. Unless I really get the "right one" in right time and the important hint for me was "when God saying "yes" to me.
God, I know you has prepared a right and great one for me, I shall not choose on my own and I will wait for the time you saying "yes" to me. Thanks God. Hope God you can make "him" understand and give him strength and power no matter what he was planning. Thanks God.
Be still and know that I'm your God. God, I'm waiting for you....
