While rushing to the airport, I prayed that God still give me a chance to get up this flight that I have planned. Praise Lord, he makes my wish comes true.
Although we reach our class abit late, but the important classes we get to attend.
Thanks God that this module I'm glad to have Ms Tang as my facilitator and lecturer that could teach us many thing that I would not know in research.
As usual everyday my best friend Wei Ee and I taking LRT to go IMU for our classes. The university has hired a good coffee shop which sell my favor coffee in the campus. Everyday before start on my day I had a cup of coffee, mostly dark mocha. Actually it's costly as it cost me RM8 per cup in the morning as I'm not getting such an expansive breakfast at my hometown before.
I like the coffee smell and I like the coffee art on the coffee itself as well. The man who made this coffee is great. Appreciate it and I hope one day I could have a chance to learn it as well.
The first day dinner I got my buy one free one subway bread as that day the voucher was due.
This week my research partner also my BFF wei ee was having her continuous prayer with their church member. They need to pray on time fixed on the schedule. She get the first one in the morning at 6am. She is great, I heard every early morning she could wake up and pray, sing praise and I'm still lying on the bed and rest. Although I'm not wake up early for praying purpose, but everyday when traveling to my university via LRT, I'm reading the words of God with my new pet's "iPhone".
I told myself that I need to comtinue this practice when I'm back to my hometown as well. After I had read the bible, I'm planting my plants in my phone as well. It's also one of my reminder as if I'm forgotten to pray and read the word of God, my plant may die and I have not much items to revive it anymore.
The first day after dinner, I'm going to pamper my self with a dessert. BR 31. Wow... Although my gastric was complaining all the time, but I pray and fix it with some antacid medication. I feel painful and discomfort until I need to keep sitting down to get my comfort position. While waiting my BFF to get her towel as she forgotten to bring in, I start to pray and reply msg that I have left behind.
I saw the message from my church sister Esther. She was so worries about her accommodation and she miss her family so badly. I know this feeling well, I know how difficult for a youngster to get use to a new environment, although I have come across all those days, but I really hope I can accompany her while she feel lonely. I trust God will be with her and she could get a good and safe accommodation as planned from God.
Every time I had read some bible verse that I think useful, I will forward her as well. Hope the words of God may strengthen her as it has give me strength that I need as well.
After few days, it's time for me to back to my hometown. It's Friday. After seen those senior had presented their research finding, use stress comes. I know I can finish my research on time as I'm not doing alone, besides my research partner, one thing make me so confidence that I can complete this research on time and did well as I know my God will lead me through those hard time I'm struggling with the research, note book entires, working.... All those stressful period and worries should not bring my joy and love away. My God is able to do all thing that's seem impossible. I can do it as my God is capable and he give me the gift and strength that I can't imagine and I should use it to glorify God's name and nothing could separate me with the love Of God.
Previously night I had listen a sermon about the gift from God. Each individual is different. Just like the story of 5 bread with two fishes. The pastor telling that if the mother's of the little boy did not prepare those food for the child, the child may not have those food to use by God. But if each of everyone can use their own gift from God in serving God and use by God, it can makes all thing possible and great. Although sometimes we may not be the one that very smart, the prettiest, the leader or those richer person. But God say that, he still able to use us as he has given us a gift that he know that's good enough for us to use it to serve him.
When I pray, I know God is talking to me deeply. I know he is try to comfort me and make me feel good with what I'm doing right now. Although I'm not pretty as other, although I'm not smart and rich like others, but I'm alive. I can still serve him with whatever I have. I should not compare with others. God don't allow me to compare. He just want me to use whatever I have to serve. Reflect back, last Sunday when my church sister apologize to me as she feel she has abit rude while instruct me to follow the way she would like to lead in praise and worship.
Suddenly I feel impressed and think that God really know what's my feeling. Although I'm not express out what my feeling, but I really have not confidence in serving as I'm worried that my skills may worsen the worship team and I'm not good enough to serve. When I heard her appologize I know God again taking to me.
On the way back from KL I'm taking bus... Usually I will sleep like pig while traveling by bus or car. For this trip, I'm totally awake at all time. Thinking... Keep reflecting... And writing my blog with all such feeling and thinking I had in mind. Keep thinking that what May happened after my research study, I'm graduating... I'm leaving... Where I'm going to? Singapore? Australia? I'm wondering... But I'm sure that I'm leaving..
Although I will miss my family badly, miss my church, my brother and sister.... I still need to move on right. As we know every one should have to move on to a different level of their life. Like married, giving birth... We also may have different friends and people around us. There was no such thing or people could accompany us forever. We should growth.... In such a way we should give up something we think that very important. Like friends, previously I really think of my good best friend will not leave me and I trust that he may not make me disappointed and the fact that he make me truly disappointed and now we just like stranger or worse than a stranger. Haha... Speechless... I know God was giving me this chance to understand there is no eternity in human relationship, one day when we die, we need to leave this world and one back to the place that we came from. So whatever happened in this world may not be remember and I could not bring it with me. I should clearly know it and use my time and love to love those who needed the love of God and do whatever God want me to do. Amen.
Finally, I reach home. Although I'm very tired, but spiritually I'm filled with God's words and i no longer thirst and hungry as I get feed by Jesus's bread and living water from God. Praise Lord. Tomorrow will be another blessed day. God, thanks for giving me a lovely family that tolerate my bad habit and love me with the love from God. Thanks God.
