17082011

Last night before back go to gym "he" sent me this link. "He" just tell me is for the noobies like me to know more about gym...OMG...
But is useful actually, but I think I seen it before..
Night time, I'm very not use to the feeling that lack out his sms or what's app message. Really not use to it, but I told myself its gonna be crazy if I keep on use to the feeling, so...I control myself not to make the 1st act to sms or message him anymore...just leave it, god will make a good way for me.
Finally I insomnia, is alright,I still manage to sleep after for sometimes...just not use to the feeling I can't sleep.
Today, damn tired after working, even go to prayer meeting also same. I nearly fall asleep on the spot of praying. K la.. going to sleep nearly tonight. Don't cares how's the feeling now, I just wish to read my mind and body.
Thanks god for peaceful and sweet night..

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16082011

Yesterday after sleeps for 4 hours, I waked by my dad to take my lunch. After my lunch I was surffing the net, update my facebook stuff for few hours there. That's waste actually but I still love to do so. OMG...Wasting time...
After that when parent was at home, I start to tidy up my things and go for gym.
At gym as usual i will reading while cycling. I love the books ~power of blessing. It touched me much and I had inspired with that.
Thinking the problems me and "him"... when I start on running on the treadmill machine. It's motivated me to run for 25 minutes on that. 15minutes non-stop running, it's tired but I success to make this. Love this feeling as much stress been accumulate recently had released. Feel better after sweating ++. An aunty very kind and nice, she taught me how to use the machine to twist my waist. I learned a new thing today, thanks God.
At night as usual we will just on what's app chatting and "he" like usual way derisively me with "stupid and lousy..pig..." and so on. I just reply him a symbol of hopeless.. then... he didn't reply also. End of the night, I just chat with my colleagues. They accompany me through out the night.. very good. Thanks God.

14082011

Today I can't go church again. Haiz... so bad...I really can't use to it.
I miss the church...I miss all my bro and sister there and thinking they will go penang have a look at the camp site and later on they go to take dinner there.
Teresa called me and ask for that, OMG.... So bad.... I miss them again...
He don't even find me today. So bad...just what's app me only... OMG...
Whatever, I must tell my self I need to use to it. Just use what's app chatting with him nia.
Tonight supper very good... My colleague buy "loh bak" for us to take... yum yum... I love that.

Beside, we chit chatting over the night with my colleague. I like kinda night shift.
The next day also I'm the one what's app "him" as last night I'm the one who stop the what's app message. I miss "sms~ing" him, but I do hopes "he" is the one "sms" me first. OMG... I think too much...