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This is my first time watch this programme. While doing night shift, all my colleague was discussing the people that joined the programme just I'm alone with no idea about this. I'm really outdated.

After that when reach home, I had downloaded many of it and waiting for some free time to have a quick look what is all about. 

Today I had start my first episode of the programme. I'm not really sure is that the first episode, but I enjoyed watching that with tears keep dropping. My first time feeling of heartbreak for the girl who confess her love to the guy but both been rejected by the guy. They are pretty, but get rejected as well... 

This girl really amazing, she dare confess in public. Thumbs up. Not every man can do that too. :)

I can feel the disappointment from this girl. Haiz... Hope her can let go... Love him, so must let him be with who he loved most, right? Hope the guy won't regret. :)

But I do proud of them as I'm really not dare to tell my love one that I love him. I'm really regret as i had miss the chance to confess and tell the truth feeling to someone I love. One thing I hope was for those I love, he could have a girl could love him and he loved her as well. I really wish that my loved guy was not forces to accept me as he hope not to hurt me.

Previously when I plan to study the counseling, I really hope I could have knowledge and good experience to help those in hurts standing up and enjoy a great future, but now I'm not healthy enough to counseling them. I didn't have a good example as what I am thinking. God, you fixed me please...

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Today early morning I had done some crazy thing in my unit.

Jus thinking to do so.... I'm just like crazy... Party... That's me... Forever can't even change...

God, I promise I will take good care of my self, my body, my heart, my soul... Sometimes I really get confuse as I'm really not sure is that I'm missing the moment or the people. But I guess, I'm really regreted for what it been happened. So, for now onward, I hope I'm not doing anything that I would regret in my future.

Be what I should be, no matter how, God is with me. 

Caring, you are my everything. I know where is my stage, where is my profession, and which style I should carry on. 

Some people I do miss them, but I can't get to them anymore. 

I like this verse... Bent sadly... When I read at it... It bring down my mood... 

I just may leave it, pray and blessed them with all my heart and with what I can do to them in future to help and build them. This is what I pray God, I do not need to side by side with them, I can pray, I can help in a different way. God, you know my hearts, my feeling and my thought, you know me the best. I pray that God you will help me fix it right? Thanks God. 

Today I have take this picture early morning when I drive back. I like weather, hmm... Is that I'm depending on the weather? No. I like that as this is a part of God's creation. Weather is good or bad, God still make miracle happen right? Is just same with my life, whether I'm good or bad, God still can fix it and give me strength to overcome all this. God, I need you, I praise you.

When I reach I working place, I still having sometimes to rest. I read the daily devotion that I had downloaded when I'm lazy to continue the chapter from the bible. 

Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled. (Matthew 5:6 KJV)

God want us as a Christian to have sometimes spending with this poor people. Not just fill their soul with the words of God, by giving the hunger people some food, poor people some cloths and fulfil their need in their life. God, what can I do? 

God, please bless me with the wisdom and faith in you so that I can complete the mission that given from you in this world. I love you Lord. ❤️❤️❤️