Today
is the most nervous and stressful day of the week and for the month also. XD
04-07-2017
I
decided to clarify something from whom I feel I might have a
"special" feeling.
My
brother- Desmond was the one keep encourage me to do so and I'm praying that
God will help me to make a good choice and do it in the right place and the
right time.
In
the afternoon, I can't manage to hold it anymore, I told him I might have some
question to ask him.
He
told me that girls always like to "kepo" mean gossiping, and I told
him I don't wish to gossip about thing from the others. Then he guessing that I
might ask something about him too. I (laugh) and reply him that I might wish to
ask something about "me". lols
He
keep guessing and asking me about is it the "someone who interest in
me" text me or some others thing which cause me have something to ask him.
All
his guessing was wrong... lols
I
think that's freak him out.
At
night, after I done my family prayer meeting, I went up to my room and get
ready myself to talk to him and praying.
He
start asking me to play games and we play almost 10 games or more which I found
funny as I'm trying to talk to him actually.
He
asked me to talk while playing games as He told me "men talking while
playing geh"
I
told him, I can't focus while playing. XD
Then
we stop playing and I'm asking some "silly question" to him and his
reaction make me clear and no doubt on my future plan.
Thank
God for His leading too. I feel relieved and happy actually. That's surprise
me. I thought I might be so sad, but actually I feel relieved much.
I
sent the reply to my bro and he keep calling me which I feel he worried that I
might feel sad. He accompany me for sometimes by texting with me and I feel
gonna cry after I'm looking at the text which sent from my bro but not him. My
brother "comforting text" was so touching and I truly appreciate it.
He
make sure I'm ok only he was relieved to go on bed. Thank God I have him in my
life. Really so blessed.
I
continued have a good funny conversation with him and telling him something
that I found special that's trigger me to ask him this "silly"
questions.
He
not really able to remember this. Such a poor memory that he have. Well, is
good that I notice it and that's really seem sweet to me. That's might consider
some sweet memory when I reach the old age.
Thank
God!!! God is so good to me. I found I able to express freely and well much
more after the clarification. It really seem good to me. Praise Lord!!!
Next
day, my brother text me in the early of the morning and ask me out for dinner
and so on. I can sense the good intention as to accompany me through out this
seasons. By the way, surprisingly I'm really good beyond my imagination as
well.
I
still texting him as normal as before and much better I feel. It is a miracle I
think. I know God you are doing something cool in my life. I really love you,
my LORD!
Night
time, we try to get flowers for my mom as the next day was her birthday!
I
fetch my brother at the same time I met his dad, Sunny. OMG, I worried that
might caused misunderstanding again. God, Please help me again!
The
flowers was so expensive, I don't have that peace to get it that moment. I try
figure out another ways.
My
brother doesn't like Tom Yam, but he brings me to get it with hot weather and
sweating +++
Poor
boy!!! hahahaha... I truly appreciate that!
After that, I planned to buy him an ice-cream as promised him to get him an ice-cream after his exam. We went Design Village since I have not been there before.
We went there and walk around... have good fellowship there too. Although I can't get what I wish - buy flowers, gift or cake for my mom, but is good to spend quality time with him.
My dad called me, and I guess that my dad might brought cake to celebrate with mom and wish me back home early. Then we left that place soon after I received call.
My brother wish to share the fees on my mom's gift (flowers or cake) XD
I
appreciate his generous heart so well. :D
So
bless I have kinda brother beside me. Thank You Jesus.
