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Yesterday after I working, I go for a gathering dinner with my colleague. Get fun and great dinner together with them @ Madam Soon- Egate. Although been fool by them with hiding my handphone as I'm keep on "line" with my other friend. They had warn me, but I still keep "line"~ing... Finally they hide my hp with them, and I been fool by them before I get my phone back.. OMG.
 

Another thing is, I make a second mistake that's I had told myself not to do it again. That's I wish my friend to honest with me. I remember one last time I did it to my best brother, and we had some argument after that, that's the sadest moment in my life... I can sudden tear in public when that period... OMG... Really regret what I did, If I don't know it and ask for it, I think our relationship will not be like this. But everything happen in God's plan. Maybe that's one part in God's plan, who know? I learn to forgive and forget.

At 1st when I know he try to cheat on me, I really angry and but when I think of that reason he did it, I think I really get touch and hope he won't lie on me next time. I really scare what happen last time was happen to us as the same. I really hope I can out of that....

感觉-约书亚团队

Watch "約書亞 - 感覺" on YouTube
挂着憔悴的容颜 走过灰暗的长街
带着心碎的感觉 生命一点一点枯萎
有什么人能体会 在我心里的残缺
到底有什么能够 让我来将一切挽回
恐惧惊慌害怕 我该如何去面对
我不断逃离不断躲藏
却也摆脱不了这梦魇
悲伤苦痛交错 要到何时才能终结
一直到遇见了你
填满了我心里面的空缺
让我再次展开双眼 给我一个全新视野 让我能够感觉 再次感觉
不断感觉生命喜悦
你给我的永远誓言 象彩虹般划过天边 人生不再残缺
奉献出所有一切 一切也无所谓

I like the chorus part.. hope God can give me a new vision that I could serve him,build me up and lead me to the promised land.

12-13 Nov Youth leader training and vision camp

Finally I'm back from the Youth training camp. Quite tiring but thank God I still not totally flat up after camp. Still able to write my blog and go shopping with my sis. 

I think one of the reason I tell myself not to take a nap as I scare I can't get into sleep tonight... I need to work continuous 3 days after it. The schedule quite pack and tiring too. This weekends hope I could get sometime to back to church again. 

I LOVE youth, I got the vision on that, but I really feel sorry after this morning discussing with my leaders. Gradually I had lost the urge to guide them, not because I'm don't love them anymore, I think should be feel ashamed as I know I'm not improving, but they had done well in God's lead.

My lovely youth leader, Chester share a good healthy drink with us that VIT C.
Total 5 C 

Commitment, Concentric, Contemporary, Community service, Christianity. 

 I think mostly all of the working adult like me had lost the commitment on that, that's what our youth leader keep mention that. My commitment not stable, mostly due to my working time is not fix and also the urge to lead the youth is lesser in time. Sometimes do feel a gap between working adult and youth, but that's not a problem for now. Most of us still can chat with the youth but the problem is our spiritual growth. I'm just thinking that, what happen with all the working adult? Are we step backward or we should really gather together and spend time praying together with this Vision.
What the pastor share is good today,we should have VISION, but we also need to act as a ROLE MODEL. If we don't have a good spiritual life, how we lead them as an example?
We shouldn't lead when we unable to manage ourself well. God please strengthen us, I should keep praying for all the working adult youth leader, physically, mentally, spiritually healthy so that we could lead them, commit onto it and serve without complaining. How much I could spend my time to pray for them, guide them and take care of them, it show how much I love you, God. I know If I say I love you, but I didn't spend time for you and your people, I telling a lie... I'm sorry... keep telling lie...
God please help me back to the heart of serving this young people. I need your love, your strength. As I know without you, I'm nothing. 

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Thanks God I been through the night... Although many thg happen in a night, but I still believe God's grace is sufficient for me... He will always protect and with me no matter what happen... Hope nothing goes wrong tonight... Another one more night...
   That's my breakfast... Just one part of that... Because my dad had prepare another breakfast for me... But I accompany my collegue go for breakfast again... As I know if I'm not going, she will not take her breakfast too... She will be starving another day.. omg...
I'm glad that I got lovely parent to take care of me, thanks God..love them so much...