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Today thoughts.

Early morning I'm having a good time spending on meditation. 

Come now, therefore, and I will send you to Pharaoh that you may bring My people, the children of Israel, out of Egypt.” But Moses said to God, “Who am I that I should go to Pharaoh, and that I should bring the children of Israel out of Egypt?” (Exodus 3:10-11 NKJV)

That's about Moses refused to be God’s messenger of deliverance, wallowing in his own inadequacy. I’ve done that too... 

While reflecting what I had done for today, I feel ashamed on me. 

God do give me his words at the first place before I get to know the bad news.

He did give me a booster of courage before I get to know the so called "bad news".

Well, I still stuck in a panic and worries condition while I'm getting to the "bad news". This great new really mean to me. My plans for 2015 has changed. 

Last night, while chit chatting with my secondary school buddies and her family, they keep motivate me to go out of my comfort zone and and move on to my dreams - working holiday in New Zealand.

The next day, which is today at the same the time I received a bad news, my plans stuck... My mind was totally blank and collapsed. I really don't know what's suppose to do. I got no idea who should I share with. I cry out with my prayer and kneel down. 

On that moment, I know I'm totally mad with it and my hand is shaking as I'm worry. While I'm praying, something flash on my mind. Is God's word!!! 

"There are many plans in a man’s heart, Nevertheless the LORD’s counsel—that will stand." (Proverbs 19:21 NKJV) 

Is time to let go all my plans... Besides it, I also reflect back on what God has done to me. 

For the past three years, I experienced the same thing.  I keep on planning for my own. I wish to have my degree... I wish to get my things done within my planning. All around my own will. But at last, that's not under my control. I know the best yet to come, I know I'm not suppose to follow my own way, but i like planning... 

I'm sure that God's planning is always the best, yet I still follow my own desire. For this reason, God make something beyond my expectation. He is holding on my master plan, I know something happened behind the scene that I would know maybe just after few years times. 

As I share with my best friend Wendy, God allowed such thing happened in my life should have a great reason behind. Although that's not the right time to let me know, but I do trust in him. 

A verse came my mind again....

"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose." (Romans 8:28 NKJV)

That's one of my favorite verse that bring me along the hard time in my life.

To make myself feels better, my friend and I keep telling ourself that we still under covenant of the grace. God didn't place me at the situation like Joseph. I'm not sold as a slave or put in the jail... I'm better than him anyways. God didn't forsaken him, so am I. He loves me so much. 

Another point of view I saw today!

While I'm hanging around my nearest shopping mall from my house, I get to a new place. Is the roof top of the mall. 

Sunny Friday with a nice weather.

I really didn't expect I could have a great view from the top. I really get shocked!!!

I thought the white cloud and the blue sky will just appear in New Zealand. But today, I get to capture a great view with my eye and my smart phone. Impressed. 

I know it really mean to me to think of it, to pray and to enjoy the great creation from God. 

While I'm planning to have my jogging time, it's rain! That's really heavy rain. 

Hmm..., what's next? 

Before I get in bed, I review back the devotional plan that I sign on. 

And I found this:

I did follow the prayer as below:

Prayer: Father, I confess that my first instinct is to refuse Your call and even try to run away. I realize that I’m stuck sometimes in fearful, horizontal thinking and forget that You invite me to look at everything from Your vertical point of view. Help me remember that Your call always comes with whatever else I need to do and be what You ask of me. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

Oh God, I did make a prayer like this! Why I still refuse to obey at the first place? Forgive me Lord. I knows I should look at everything from your vertical point of view! I had miss it... That make me speechless when I saw this prayer. 

God, you are amazing! Praise Lord. 

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Today while traveling to work, I'm praying for my CG member. I know God will open door that no one can close. His promise was never fails as well. 

After my duty, I went to visit my CG leader's father. He is admitted in Adventist hospital. Before I visiting him, I pray that God's spirit with me and I can pray and share freely. Thanks God, we have a great conversation and I teach him to keep praying and keep believing!!! 

During the visiting section, a man came for emptying the rubbish. He is a Indian if not mistaken, but the first sentense he spoken to us is “你好吗？” in mandarin. We have a great short conversation while he is emptying the rubbish. My friend's father and I were impressed with his action as there are seldom an cleaning personal will sent regards to the patient they met. He is one of it and he praising me after he know the uncle lying beside me was just my friend's father. 

What's does the situation tells me? The world need love. What can I do??? Three little thing I manage to make it well. That's PRAY, CARE and SHARE! Amen!!!

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Today's thought! Authentic serving. 

Today is the last day on my bible plan on authentic serving. It's remind me to keep serving even though I'm busy. 

God, thanks for reminding me on this with your words and get me to be like you more and more through the thing that Jesus Christ done to his disciples. I know this is one of the way to win your favor.  

Luke 5:4
⁴When He had stopped speaking, He said to Simon, “Launch out into the deep and let down your nets for a catch.”

I know your intention is to bless me. You asked me launch out into the deep and let my nets for a catch. The catch of blessing, the catch of prosperity... And so on. He wish to bless me more than I wish! 

"Dream big and God will exceed your dream because He delights in giving you exceedingly abundantly above all that you ask or think." -James Macdonald 

Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, (Ephesians 3:20 NKJV)

God, I know what's suppose to do. I'm happy that today I did get a friend to attend he Christmas Eve party main for evangelism purpose. Christmas is near the corner, most of my church bro and sister were busy in preparing the evangelism service programs. Although I'm not involve in any preparation, but God I know what's my position in this service. I'm the host of the house, I should gets my guest for the party. I should start praying and inviting!! Beside, if I would be the host, I should also pray for the bro and sis in the house when they are preparing. This Christmas is a chance to let us launch out to the deep, can start catching!!! God, please give me strength and consistently pray for those in needs, in preparing and guest that's coming. Yea... God, I'm here, use me and sent me!!!

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Today is the day. 

Actually that's stressful when I know I'm going to join my church brother and sister for the Marathon. 

They are really good in running and exercising. So what's about me? I had long time didn't train for that. Just wondering am I going to sweep of by the bus. 

After church youth service, we going to my church bro. Jia Qing's grandma funeral. We are having a great time there to know and more about him and his family. 

Right after the funeral, we heading to mcd sunway to wait for another friend before we going to the starting point for the Marathon.