20122014

That's suppose to be a happy day as my beloved sis and her daughter -Abigial is back.

Sad thing was I really try hard to have a good conversation with my bro in law. That's really make me sad and mad on myself. It just like going back to the last two years that we are having some kind of misunderstand and our relationship screw up. I really hate this kind of feeling. It really mess up my day.

God, honestly I doesn't want this back to my life once again. I hate this kind of feeling. I can't allow one of my relationship breakdown like this. No matter that's my friend, my family, even those I not really know the person, I also wish that I could not mess up any of the relationship with them.

Lord, tell me and show me what's I'm suppose to do? Do I need to leave it like this? I can't manage it, could you lead me??? I can sense something wrong behind the scene, but I don't know why.... All I can do now is pray and surrender all to you once again. Beside, that's caught my attention was my bro - Philip. I know something happened on him that I can't really help him, but yet God please help me to take care of him, and sent the angels to look after him. 

Tonight and tomorrow will be another busy day. God, I need your presence and strength in me. Guide be through, I wish I won't me lost and worry. I know whatever thing may happened as your plan and I choose to obey, that's it. In Jesus Christ name I pray. Amen. 

17122014

Today is the second day of my fasting day. 

I plan on my fasting on Monday, Wednesday and Friday before Christmas Eve as to pray for those I have invited and those in need. 

As God said: But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. (Matthew 6:33 NKJV)

That's my prayer and I know God will take care of the rest of my life. 

I fast on my beloved coffee, Facebook and my dinner (only fluids allowed). 

Many temptation happened when I start on my fasting prayer. 

My parents keep asking me to go for my beloved Tom yam at the first two days on my fasting period. 

My friend drinking coffee infront of me. 

Gosh.... But through God's word, I scored. 

My reward from the early morning .... A cup of greentea starbuck. 

I can't imagine that my friend could sent a cup of greentea starbuck for me as I'm not requesting her to sent me starbuck (without coffee). It would happen that she sent me a cup of caffeine frappucino, I think my fasting could be screwed up. 

Thanks God for knowing me well. That's the booster dose for me in lightening my fasting day. 

Let's start on my devotion.

My today words from God. 

Let it be as you say, Jesus. 

I'm reading based on the scheduled devotion plan, I received a devotion plan on Mary's life.

I'm wondering how a little woman could used by God for his purpose as most of the great people in bible is a man. I need a model to follow. Who can I learn from? God let me learned from Mary (Jesus's mother)

She is great obedience person. 

She never sought her own comfort. 

She lived entitled to nothing.

She expected suffering rather than being surprised by it.

She waited and responded to God rather than trying to control any outcome.

She submitted to her husband’s leadership over and over again.

She received whatever the Lord had for her with joy.

That's what a woman could do for God. I know it, there's not too late to learn about that and I know God will change and help me to be more and more obedience and more like him. 

Praise Lord. 

Prayer:

My Heavenly Father, I'm surrending all my plan, my life, my cares to you Lord. I know you love those who obey you and that's the way I can win your favor. From now I'm seeking your kingdom and your righteousness in everything that I do, please strengthen me and help me to be more close to you and show me your plan. I'm waiting to respond on your call rather that trying to control over the outcome. Thank you Lord, I really wish to be a great women as according on your plan, to help my future right man,submitting the leadership over him but God please lead him as well. I also receiving whatever you had for me with joy for now. In Jesus Christ name I prayed, Amen.

Fellowship- James MacDonald

Day 1 The Discipline of Fellowship 

A lot of people don’t realize fellowship is a spiritual discipline. It’s not just something helpful, but something commanded. And one of the surest barometers of the quality of your Christian life is the quality of your Christian relationships. 

Acts 2:42-44 summarizes the life of the early church by saying, “They devoted (or they continued steadfastly) in the apostles’ teaching (and what?) the fellowship.” Now what is fellowship? Fellowship basically means “our common life together.” 

I kind of grew up thinking fellowship was something that happened after the service down in the church basement, with cherry punch and cheesy conversations. That’s not what made the early church so powerful. They took fellowship to a new level—the level we want to be at! 

The Greek word for fellowship is koinonia. Koinonia is translated in the New Testament partnership or sharing. Sometimes it’s translated communion or fellowship. Fellowship is a relationship between individuals which involves (this is key) active participation in a common interest. And, as a result of our participation in the common interest, we have a residual interest in one another. 

Harvest meets regularly on seven campuses. We are one church in several locations bound together by a common purpose. As we engage in that common purpose, the relationships that are the result of that engagement produce fellowship. What holds all of this together is the Spirit of God working through the Word of God, and our service to God binds us together in love toward one another. That is what fellowship really is; our common life together. And it deepens as we persist in our common life together. 

Prayer – Father, You included fellowship as a key component of the newborn church. Forgive us for dumbing, lightening, and trivializing fellowship. Help us not to be satisfied with counterfeit fellowship, but to seek You together. Lord, we want the world to see our love for one another, and the genuine common life You intend for Your people. That kind of fellowship brings You glory and draw others to You. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

And they continued steadfastly in the apostles’ doctrine and fellowship, in the breaking of bread, and in prayers. Then fear came upon every soul, and many wonders and signs were done through the apostles. Now all who believed were together, and had all things in common, (Acts 2:42-44 NKJV)

Day 2 The Center of Fellowship 

1 Corinthians 1:9 says, “God is faithful, by whom you were called into the fellowship of his Son, Jesus Christ our Lord.” Our primary fellowship is with Jesus Christ. The residual fellowship is the relationship we have with other people who share that relationship. You say, “Well, James, I feel it’s going a lot better with me and the Lord than it is with me and other Christians.” Sometimes that’s because we bring secular ways of relating into our Christian relationships. We can see this in the level and pace of our conversations. 

Surface level — That’s where you talk about stuff like weather, sports, and other interests that aren’t (shocker here) central to life. 

• Personal level — There doesn’t have to be another Christian to have this conversation about your health, your career, your family. “We’ve been thinking about you. How’s it going with your son?” 

• Spiritual level — This is where fellowship really begins, where you’re having conversations you can’t have with anybody else. This level often includes prayer. It should definitely include Christ. 

• Don’t rush — It’s alright to start at the surface or personal levels—but don’t get stuck there. 

• Go first — Demonstrate you can be trusted by trusting. Show them fellowship is two-way by disclosing something from your life in relation to God. 

• Be specific — Don’t use spiritual phrases or terms simply for effect. Be cautious with “Praise the Lord!” or “God is Good!” if you’re not ready to talk about what you mean. 

God help all of us to deepen the level of our interaction with one another. 

Prayer – Father, thank You so much for all three levels of conversation. But thank You most for designing us to yearn for depth in relationships. Thank You for meeting us as we meet each other in honesty, integrity, and transparency before You. Thank You for the privilege of intimate fellowship with Your Son, Jesus Christ our Lord. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

I thank my God always concerning you for the grace of God which was given to you by Christ Jesus, (I Corinthians 1:4 NKJV)

Day 3 Fellowship and Unity 

A commitment to fellowship is a commitment to unity—one mindedness. Notice how Paul uses “mind” twice in this verse. This doesn’t mean we agree in lock-step on everything; it means we agree deeply on the most important things and we give one another a lot of latitude on what’s not so important. 
In Philippians 2:1, the phrase “participation in the Spirit” uses the Greek word koinonia, which is often translated fellowship. This is the third of Paul’s five signs of genuine life in the body of Christ (encouragement in Christ, comfort from love, fellowship in the Spirit, affection, and sympathy). If all this is going on between us and God, things are going to be really happening between us! 

Ephesians 4:3 says we should be “eager to maintain the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace.” God’s Spirit wants our church to be unified. God’s Spirit wants us to love and forgive and forbear with one another (see Ephesians 4:2). 

But genuine unity among us isn’t going to be maintained if we are not first deeply connected and living in fellowship with the Spirit ourselves. There are all kinds of examples in Christian history of groups who have tried to impose unity because it was a good idea. Our role isn’t to create unity; that’s God’s job. Ephesians 4:3 tells us we need to be attentive, committed, and “eager to maintain the unity of the Spirit.” When we sense things going sideways, our prayer should be, “Father, am I maintaining or am I disrupting the unity of Your Spirit?” 

Prayer – Father, point out anything in me that disrupts or blocks the unity Your Spirit is going for in my church. Keep me from committing sins or omitting service that harms unity in Your body. Remind me each day You are the decider of what place and role I am to carry out in Your body. Lead me into faithfulness that preserves the unity of Your Spirit. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

Therefore if there is any consolation in Christ, if any comfort of love, if any fellowship of the Spirit, if any affection and mercy, fulfill my joy by being like-minded, having the same love, being of one accord, of one mind. Let nothing be done through selfish ambition or conceit, but in lowliness of mind let each esteem others better than himself. (Philippians 2:1-3 NKJV)

Day 4 Fellowship and Honesty 

Fellowship requires honesty. When there is pretense there can be no genuine fellowship. John begins his first letter with such a good picture of this truth about the nature of fellowship. People who can’t or won’t be honest with each other are people who will never experience the kind of nurturing fellowship God desires among His people. 

And just calling it fellowship doesn’t make it so. We mock God’s character and power if we claim to be intimate with Him but our lives are a mess. When God’s around, the lights are on! Walking in the darkness means we may bump into each other, but we won’t have fellowship. 

When we see ourselves and one another clearly under God’s clarifying and purifying light, we are in position to appreciate each other, observe the cleansing work Jesus performs in one another’s lives, and experience the common ground that creates fellowship. 

John is clearly pointing to the heart of authenticity in these verses. Authenticity requires honesty—not putting on a mask; not coming to church and acting okay when I’m not. It is weeping with those who weep; rejoicing with those who rejoice; bearing one another’s burdens, and so fulfilling the law of Christ. God forbid our churches would ever become a place of pretense and mask-wearing and acting like I’m fine when I’m not. 

Prayer – Father, put Your finger on the places in my life infected with pretense and false conclusions. Help me to be genuine in confessing my sins—the ones I can see as well as the ones I must be shown. Lead me to others who want to live transparently, and allow us to experience the remarkable fellowship of Your presence together. In Jesus name, Amen.

If we say that we have fellowship with Him, and walk in darkness, we lie and do not practice the truth. But if we walk in the light as He is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus Christ His Son cleanses us from all sin. If we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. (I John 1:6-9 NKJV)

Day 5 Fellowship and Pain 

Fellowship hurts sometimes. That’s why Paul said this, speaking of Jesus: “That I may know him (Jesus)—and the power of his resurrection, and may share (the word share tries to convey the Greek koinonia translated, in many Bibles as fellowship of) his sufferings.” The fellowship of His sufferings is the relational connection born out of your mutual experience. People suffer financial loss, health problems, and family break up. Those difficulties are not the fellowship of His suffering unless they are the direct result of our following Christ. 

Jesus Christ paid the debt for your sin. He took upon Himself the punishment for your sin. Question: Did He deserve that humiliating and painful death? (No!) Could He have avoided it? (Yes!) But did He take it? (Yes!) I experience the fellowship of His suffering when I accept a pain I do not deserve. 

Now, I’ve done plenty of things where I deserved what I got. But in addition to my own failings, there is the pain of misunderstanding and betrayal and rejection; the things Christ experienced. Listen Christian, when you absorb injury for the sake of others, you know Jesus in a new and deeper way. You know Him in the fellowship of Christ’s suffering. He took what He did not deserve. In order to become more like Him we will have to learn the fellowship of His sufferings. 

Prayer – Father, remind me that the command to forgive one another assumes there will be things which must be forgiven—like hurts. If I’m growing into Your likeness, Lord, I will be developing a capacity for accepting the pains that come with that growth. I desperately need Your help in growing that way, Father. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

But what things were gain to me, these I have counted loss for Christ. Yet indeed I also count all things loss for the excellence of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord, for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and count them as rubbish, that I may gain Christ and be found in Him, not having my own righteousness, which is from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ, the righteousness which is from God by faith; that I may know Him and the power of His resurrection, and the fellowship of His sufferings, being conformed to His death, (Philippians 3:7-10 NKJV)

Day 6 Ministry and Fellowship 

Fellowship is about partnership in ministry. It’s not just about all the benefits that flow to us as a result of fellowship between us. Ultimately, it’s about what God wants to do for others as a result of our fellowship. 

Galatians 2:9 records some of Paul’s earliest memories of what occurred after he began to follow Jesus. “And when James and Cephas (another name for Peter) and John. . .” Peter, James, and John. These were the main leaders in the early church. They “perceived the grace that was given to me,” Paul said. In other words, when they figured out I was saved, “they gave the right hand of fellowship to Barnabas and me.” 

So, what’s this right hand of fellowship all about? The leadership welcomed Paul and Barnabas, and sent them out! What better indication of their seeing God’s Spirit in Paul and Barnabas than to entrust them with a mission! 

The point of welcoming new members into a local church is not to be able to put a larger number on the billboard out front—it’s to enlarge the ministry! New members haven’t really joined until they have found a place to actively connect; a spot where they are needed; a role where they can serve. Imagine the next guy who joined the Jerusalem church and was placed in a small group with James, Cephas, John, Paul, and Barnabas. They held each other accountable for ministry. Notice how they gave each other direction and caution. “You two go after the Gentiles; we’ll focus on the Jews.” “Don’t overlook the poor.” The by-product of genuine fellowship is effective ministry. 

Prayer – Father, keep me from acting like a parasite on Your body. I desperately need the fellowship and ministry from Your body in my life, but I know You intend to use me and work through me within Your body as well. Help me not only find but also give myself to my place in Your church. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

and when James, Cephas, and John, who seemed to be pillars, perceived the grace that had been given to me, they gave me and Barnabas the right hand of fellowship, that we should go to the Gentiles and they to the circumcised. They desired only that we should remember the poor, the very thing which I also was eager to do. (Galatians 2:9-10 NKJV)

Day 7 Fellowship in Action

Fellowship involves sharing what I have. 

2 Corinthians 8:3 describes fellowship in action as people who “gave according to their means.” What they had, they gave. 

What do you have? I have time. I have experience and wisdom. I have compassion. Yes, I have certain resources. That’s were fellowship in action begins. In the passage above, Paul told the Corinthians what a good example the Macedonians were in giving. Here’s what was going on. Because of persecution and famine, some of the Jewish Christians in Jerusalem were starving. So some of the churches in Asia Minor took up offerings for them. But amazingly, people who gave really didn’t have—humanly speaking—very much to give. Paul says, “You’ve got to hear about this grace that’s been given.” Look at verses two and three. It wasn’t the biggest gift, but it may have been the biggest sacrifice. Everyone’s “means” are different. God multiplies the products of an attitude of giving, no matter the size or nature of the gift. Remember what Jesus did with a boy’s sack lunch (John 6:1-12)?

Don’t you want your church to be a compelling testimony of the power of the Gospel in the way people love and care for one another? Every time you write a note, each time you make a meal for someone who’s hurting, and every time you give what you have to meet someone’s need, you are practicing fellowship. It’s a powerful thing! 

Prayer – Father, open my eyes to see needs You have provided for me to help meet. Who I am and what I have come from You, and I want to be directed by You in how I use all You have given. Help me never lose sight that I belong to You and can be an instrument in Your hands for Your work in the world. Open my eyes, Lord. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

Moreover, brethren, we make known to you the grace of God bestowed on the churches of Macedonia: that in a great trial of affliction the abundance of their joy and their deep poverty abounded in the riches of their liberality. For I bear witness that according to their ability, yes, and beyond their ability, they were freely willing, imploring us with much urgency that we would receive the gift and the fellowship of the ministering to the saints. (II Corinthians 8:1-4 NKJV)

28122014

Today thoughts.

Early morning I'm having a good time spending on meditation. 

Come now, therefore, and I will send you to Pharaoh that you may bring My people, the children of Israel, out of Egypt.” But Moses said to God, “Who am I that I should go to Pharaoh, and that I should bring the children of Israel out of Egypt?” (Exodus 3:10-11 NKJV)

That's about Moses refused to be God’s messenger of deliverance, wallowing in his own inadequacy. I’ve done that too... 

While reflecting what I had done for today, I feel ashamed on me. 

God do give me his words at the first place before I get to know the bad news.

He did give me a booster of courage before I get to know the so called "bad news".

Well, I still stuck in a panic and worries condition while I'm getting to the "bad news". This great new really mean to me. My plans for 2015 has changed. 

Last night, while chit chatting with my secondary school buddies and her family, they keep motivate me to go out of my comfort zone and and move on to my dreams - working holiday in New Zealand.

The next day, which is today at the same the time I received a bad news, my plans stuck... My mind was totally blank and collapsed. I really don't know what's suppose to do. I got no idea who should I share with. I cry out with my prayer and kneel down. 

On that moment, I know I'm totally mad with it and my hand is shaking as I'm worry. While I'm praying, something flash on my mind. Is God's word!!! 

"There are many plans in a man’s heart, Nevertheless the LORD’s counsel—that will stand." (Proverbs 19:21 NKJV) 

Is time to let go all my plans... Besides it, I also reflect back on what God has done to me. 

For the past three years, I experienced the same thing.  I keep on planning for my own. I wish to have my degree... I wish to get my things done within my planning. All around my own will. But at last, that's not under my control. I know the best yet to come, I know I'm not suppose to follow my own way, but i like planning... 

I'm sure that God's planning is always the best, yet I still follow my own desire. For this reason, God make something beyond my expectation. He is holding on my master plan, I know something happened behind the scene that I would know maybe just after few years times. 

As I share with my best friend Wendy, God allowed such thing happened in my life should have a great reason behind. Although that's not the right time to let me know, but I do trust in him. 

A verse came my mind again....

"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose." (Romans 8:28 NKJV)

That's one of my favorite verse that bring me along the hard time in my life.

To make myself feels better, my friend and I keep telling ourself that we still under covenant of the grace. God didn't place me at the situation like Joseph. I'm not sold as a slave or put in the jail... I'm better than him anyways. God didn't forsaken him, so am I. He loves me so much. 

Another point of view I saw today!

While I'm hanging around my nearest shopping mall from my house, I get to a new place. Is the roof top of the mall. 

Sunny Friday with a nice weather.

I really didn't expect I could have a great view from the top. I really get shocked!!!

I thought the white cloud and the blue sky will just appear in New Zealand. But today, I get to capture a great view with my eye and my smart phone. Impressed. 

I know it really mean to me to think of it, to pray and to enjoy the great creation from God. 

While I'm planning to have my jogging time, it's rain! That's really heavy rain. 

Hmm..., what's next? 

Before I get in bed, I review back the devotional plan that I sign on. 

And I found this:

I did follow the prayer as below:

Prayer: Father, I confess that my first instinct is to refuse Your call and even try to run away. I realize that I’m stuck sometimes in fearful, horizontal thinking and forget that You invite me to look at everything from Your vertical point of view. Help me remember that Your call always comes with whatever else I need to do and be what You ask of me. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

Oh God, I did make a prayer like this! Why I still refuse to obey at the first place? Forgive me Lord. I knows I should look at everything from your vertical point of view! I had miss it... That make me speechless when I saw this prayer. 

God, you are amazing! Praise Lord. 

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Today while traveling to work, I'm praying for my CG member. I know God will open door that no one can close. His promise was never fails as well. 

After my duty, I went to visit my CG leader's father. He is admitted in Adventist hospital. Before I visiting him, I pray that God's spirit with me and I can pray and share freely. Thanks God, we have a great conversation and I teach him to keep praying and keep believing!!! 

During the visiting section, a man came for emptying the rubbish. He is a Indian if not mistaken, but the first sentense he spoken to us is “你好吗？” in mandarin. We have a great short conversation while he is emptying the rubbish. My friend's father and I were impressed with his action as there are seldom an cleaning personal will sent regards to the patient they met. He is one of it and he praising me after he know the uncle lying beside me was just my friend's father. 

What's does the situation tells me? The world need love. What can I do??? Three little thing I manage to make it well. That's PRAY, CARE and SHARE! Amen!!!

25112014

Today's thought! Authentic serving. 

Today is the last day on my bible plan on authentic serving. It's remind me to keep serving even though I'm busy. 

God, thanks for reminding me on this with your words and get me to be like you more and more through the thing that Jesus Christ done to his disciples. I know this is one of the way to win your favor.  

Luke 5:4
⁴When He had stopped speaking, He said to Simon, “Launch out into the deep and let down your nets for a catch.”

I know your intention is to bless me. You asked me launch out into the deep and let my nets for a catch. The catch of blessing, the catch of prosperity... And so on. He wish to bless me more than I wish! 

"Dream big and God will exceed your dream because He delights in giving you exceedingly abundantly above all that you ask or think." -James Macdonald 

Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, (Ephesians 3:20 NKJV)

God, I know what's suppose to do. I'm happy that today I did get a friend to attend he Christmas Eve party main for evangelism purpose. Christmas is near the corner, most of my church bro and sister were busy in preparing the evangelism service programs. Although I'm not involve in any preparation, but God I know what's my position in this service. I'm the host of the house, I should gets my guest for the party. I should start praying and inviting!! Beside, if I would be the host, I should also pray for the bro and sis in the house when they are preparing. This Christmas is a chance to let us launch out to the deep, can start catching!!! God, please give me strength and consistently pray for those in needs, in preparing and guest that's coming. Yea... God, I'm here, use me and sent me!!!

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Today is the day. 

Actually that's stressful when I know I'm going to join my church brother and sister for the Marathon. 

They are really good in running and exercising. So what's about me? I had long time didn't train for that. Just wondering am I going to sweep of by the bus. 

After church youth service, we going to my church bro. Jia Qing's grandma funeral. We are having a great time there to know and more about him and his family. 

Right after the funeral, we heading to mcd sunway to wait for another friend before we going to the starting point for the Marathon. 

21092014

Today's coffee talk make me think and share as well....

Today is the first time I'm not getting interest to either post or share the picture that I took in the classroom. Not because I dislike the coffee, not because I'm moody, just simply because I'm enjoying the cake, coffee and people. A nice conversation start with a cup of coffee and end by a deep sharing among us. 

I'm not sure since when I started become a coffee lover, dreams to become a barista, but I know actually I'm enjoying to have a comfortable place for my coffee. Just weird thinking started as I keep thinking to open an coffee house that could open a door (a way) as to share God's love to those in need. I know that's not everyone love coffee, just like the movie in " cafe waiting love" I'm wondering is that I can really get someone a coffee that he or she need without telling me what she prefer?

I like human touch... That's why I'm a nurse.... I like to talk... Not because I'm talkative, because I hope to understand their feeling, their thinking more.... I like a movie named "listener". There is a man born with a gift that he can listen to someone's thinking without telling out by them. I really wish I could have that gift as well. I still remember when I'm going to a camp "vision camp". A sister in Christ share with me that she could able to sense those youth feeling and try to lead them, counseling them by the lead of the Holy Spirit. Her sharing quite impressed me. I hope I can become a listener, a counselor, a leader that could help those in doubt, in the junctions, and those in need. I keep telling myself that I'm not called to talk with those who able to survive in a group. I'm called to serve and help those who not able to fix in the group. God, please strengthen me and bless me with the gift that you want me to serve with. 

13092014

Today is a special day to me.

Finally I get to off on the weekend. Praise Lord. 

Early morning, I thought I could be able to have my exercise done, but sadly that I couldn't make it and I have my brunch with my parent. 

After having brunch, I choose to stay at home to finish up my assignment of the week. 

While getting my things done, my bro wellyuan text me that he wish I could able to accompany him to attend a party organized by some Christian friends. I feel weird as I know him, it doesn't seem that he would have Christian friends beside me and some of my colleagues that I know. 

While deciding to accompany or not, I pray that God give me wisdom and his spirit lead me. I also pray God open his heart to know more a bout God. 

Before meeting him, my plan is to visit a cafe in Penang and get a cup of coffee. But end up I get in an coffee shop near the Jetty. 

This lady was sitting alone, her tone while talking was not from Malaysia. She definitely was a traveller.

While wondering what to eat, I saw an old lady ordering Wan Tan Mee. 

At the same time, I'm ordering as well.

That's the stall....

The old lady did not ask my permission and sit down with me at the same table. 

She comes with an old bicycle and she look pretty sad. While she sitting, she ask the waiter to get her the 100 ringgit change. While looking at the sad face, I know that's she experience her hard time in life. That's make her smiling face gone. When I ask her to smile, she told me that "she is pretty sad" Hokkien so call " Kek sim". Funny thing was the wan tan mee guy bring me the mee first before the old lady. I thought she order some special one so spontaneously I get my food. At the same time, the wan tan mee uncle told me that is RM3.30 per plate then he left as he was busy sending another plate for another customer. When I'm preparing the money for the uncle, I get more money out and buy the old lady a dinner. I know that's not much for me, but for this old lady it mean so much. I told the wan tan mee uncle that this money is for both plate of wan tan mee. That old lady know it and keep saying thanks to me. Finally I get to see her smile. I think that's worth to buy a smile just with a wan tan me that cost me RM3.30. Besides, from the treat, I get to talk to her more. She share with me about her life. One thing that's impressed me was, she say she was damn regret that she was not married. She  quite choosy on her marriage and end up she was not married. Now, she was 70+ years and she could not able to get job anymore. She get no child to take care of her and she need to earn money for life. Sad thing was I'm quite rushing as my brother is waiting for me. Before I left, I give her all the small change that I have from the table and she keep remind me to drive safe and thank me once again. I know that's the right thing I did. God sent me this old lady to inspire me, let me think, let me have the chance to help her and get the old lady a love message. When I driving to meet my brother, I pray that God could take care this old lady that I met and hope she can have a chance to know about Jesus as well. God bless you, my cute old lady. 

Finally I get my brother. While listened to his sharing on how he get in touch with this so call "church friends", I feel dam weird.

He get baptized in a day when get contact to the bible sharing. I'm shocked and wondering how they share so that my brother could able to accept Christ and get baptized as well. 

While stepped in the place that they get the party, I get shocked as well. All of them dressed well and they are very friendly. They invited us to have our dinner with them and a girl named Esther introduce herself to me and she start "preaching" with bible. At first I'm impressed as she did well in introduce the bible and explaining the bible verse to me. I did mentioned I'm a Christian, but she still keep preaching. OMG 😱.... It make me mad about that. Worse thing was she told me Jesus may have wife in the revelation. Oh my goodness... What kind of bible is that? I can't accept it when I know they was telling me the wrong thing yet I'm not able to use the truth to fight back. I keep smiling and rejecting while she "preaching". Actually I feel uneasy from inner of my heart. I wish I could run off from this place. I really feel bad and uncomfortable. That's not because of the people, that's because of the thing she shared is not right. 

I'm sending a text message to my brother and hope he can bring me off. I'm damn uncomfortable... I'm very sorry to they kindly invitation, but I know that's not God's will for me to stay and keep listening.

Thanks my brother willing to sent me home. Hallelujah.... That's a feeling that I'm breathing while I stepped out from the appartment. I don't know what's wrong with the service, but I know that's not the right one I should stay. 

I invite my brother to join me to my church. That's youth service that I wish to attend. Thank God and pastor Jing ming that could spend times explaining the difference on the churches. Praise o

Lord once again that I could enjoy my supper "Tom yam" with all my church brother and sister once again. ^^

 

07092014

Today is a wonderful busiest day of the week.

Early morning I get to church as I'm serving keyboard. Song leader is uncle Weng. He get a praise and worship song name "上帝能够". The intro is start from me!!! I'm stressed!!! Actually that's not the first time I'm playing this intro, but... I'm stressed as well.

Thanks God, although I also had played wrongly in some parts of the song. Overall, it has done.... 

Lunch time!!! All youngster has the gang for lunch.... I'm between BM gang and Penang gang as... I don't have transport. 

Finally I'm attracted by my loved "coffee" as my BFF Kim invited me to go for coffee as I'm fall in love on that long time ago.

Funny thing happened, we was in miscommunication between on the location and we get to the wrong place. But, finally we passed by a cafe....

At first I'm wondering to try on this cafe... But just another while, I saw another cafe just few shop next to this.

The cafe named "clock's cafe"

After we have our lunch at Japin, few of us get the second round for the coffee. 

I'm on diet.... So I just have this for my lunch....

The waiter was headache as I'm requesting to have less oil on my dish.... 

This is what ms. Kim have it...

Next station... The clock's cafe

The decoration was just nice... 

Coffee time!!!

There are four types of coffee.... You can request what to have on the decoration of the coffee. 

Decoration of the coffe is just nice, but the taste... Opps... Sorry, I don't mean to hurt the Barista. My cappuccino was still nice, but the rest. I'm pretty sorry then. 

When reached home, that's my exercise time. 

Weather is not kind to me, my first plan was spoilt as I'm planning to go jogging at the MPSP sports and recreational stadium.

While walking to the park... I can feel that heavy rain is coming... I scare I get wet before I get back. 

I got to turn back and walk back before the heavy rain comes...

When reache home, I'm not give up on exercising.... While waiting the heavy rain to come, I'm jogging at the nearest garden.

God say nothing is impossible.... 

I'm burning my calories.... Yea....

My parent left me alone as they have a date with church uncle and aunties... So, I'm home alone. 

What to do with that? Seldom that I'm off on Sunday, do hope I'm not having dinner alone at this time. 

Thanks God, there's a hint from fb. Angeline Mak posted a picture with Ivan that give me clue to join them to have fun. 

Next station, board games time...

Quite enjoy the time having games with this small group of church bro and sister. They are Sandy, Ivan, Dennis, Angeline and her daughter. 

Meanwhile I'm taking funny photo with Sandy. She is nice and we wefie at times while waiting the games to be explained. 

She is pretty right? Am I the same??? Hihi 😁....

Love to have fun with them so much. Thanks God that I'm blessed.