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Today thoughts.

Early morning I'm having a good time spending on meditation. 

Come now, therefore, and I will send you to Pharaoh that you may bring My people, the children of Israel, out of Egypt.” But Moses said to God, “Who am I that I should go to Pharaoh, and that I should bring the children of Israel out of Egypt?” (Exodus 3:10-11 NKJV)

That's about Moses refused to be God’s messenger of deliverance, wallowing in his own inadequacy. I’ve done that too... 

While reflecting what I had done for today, I feel ashamed on me. 

God do give me his words at the first place before I get to know the bad news.

He did give me a booster of courage before I get to know the so called "bad news".

Well, I still stuck in a panic and worries condition while I'm getting to the "bad news". This great new really mean to me. My plans for 2015 has changed. 

Last night, while chit chatting with my secondary school buddies and her family, they keep motivate me to go out of my comfort zone and and move on to my dreams - working holiday in New Zealand.

The next day, which is today at the same the time I received a bad news, my plans stuck... My mind was totally blank and collapsed. I really don't know what's suppose to do. I got no idea who should I share with. I cry out with my prayer and kneel down. 

On that moment, I know I'm totally mad with it and my hand is shaking as I'm worry. While I'm praying, something flash on my mind. Is God's word!!! 

"There are many plans in a man’s heart, Nevertheless the LORD’s counsel—that will stand." (Proverbs 19:21 NKJV) 

Is time to let go all my plans... Besides it, I also reflect back on what God has done to me. 

For the past three years, I experienced the same thing.  I keep on planning for my own. I wish to have my degree... I wish to get my things done within my planning. All around my own will. But at last, that's not under my control. I know the best yet to come, I know I'm not suppose to follow my own way, but i like planning... 

I'm sure that God's planning is always the best, yet I still follow my own desire. For this reason, God make something beyond my expectation. He is holding on my master plan, I know something happened behind the scene that I would know maybe just after few years times. 

As I share with my best friend Wendy, God allowed such thing happened in my life should have a great reason behind. Although that's not the right time to let me know, but I do trust in him. 

A verse came my mind again....

"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose." (Romans 8:28 NKJV)

That's one of my favorite verse that bring me along the hard time in my life.

To make myself feels better, my friend and I keep telling ourself that we still under covenant of the grace. God didn't place me at the situation like Joseph. I'm not sold as a slave or put in the jail... I'm better than him anyways. God didn't forsaken him, so am I. He loves me so much. 

Another point of view I saw today!

While I'm hanging around my nearest shopping mall from my house, I get to a new place. Is the roof top of the mall. 

Sunny Friday with a nice weather.

I really didn't expect I could have a great view from the top. I really get shocked!!!

I thought the white cloud and the blue sky will just appear in New Zealand. But today, I get to capture a great view with my eye and my smart phone. Impressed. 

I know it really mean to me to think of it, to pray and to enjoy the great creation from God. 

While I'm planning to have my jogging time, it's rain! That's really heavy rain. 

Hmm..., what's next? 

Before I get in bed, I review back the devotional plan that I sign on. 

And I found this:

I did follow the prayer as below:

Prayer: Father, I confess that my first instinct is to refuse Your call and even try to run away. I realize that I’m stuck sometimes in fearful, horizontal thinking and forget that You invite me to look at everything from Your vertical point of view. Help me remember that Your call always comes with whatever else I need to do and be what You ask of me. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

Oh God, I did make a prayer like this! Why I still refuse to obey at the first place? Forgive me Lord. I knows I should look at everything from your vertical point of view! I had miss it... That make me speechless when I saw this prayer. 

God, you are amazing! Praise Lord.