06022013

Today happen is the 1st time when I graduate a child dead in front of me. Quite sad and helpless that moment. That time, I'm panic, I need to call for doctor and call code. Ask for help and finally the child also dead in peace. Announce expired at 0150hrs.
1st in my life I need to enter the dead big book. Omg... I can't accept that. God, what's your plan? I think you should be thinking to reduce the suffer for that child. That's one of the relief for her too.
I slowly learn to be cheerful after that incident...
God, I'm know what's my limitations. I want to be better. My boss want me to present that case, I don't know how was it, but I try my best to do the best for her and for the goodness of another patient too. God, please help me.
Thanks God, today Jillian mummy back here to give us the Chinese orange. I feel great when I heard the news from her that Jillian was fine after operation. Praise the Lord. My mood back again. All of my colleague know I'm in grieving mood after that incident. After u meet Jillian's mother, I feel great. Thanks God. She been saved with my prayer. Thanks God.