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After vision camp I had busy for whole week non-stop. For my assignment, my work, my patient... Omg.... 

Really thanks God for everything that he planned for me. Although the things happen for us seem was bad, but finally I get to learn to obey and I earned experience. Praise Lord, really appreciate his planning in my life. 

I got dream, I got passion, I got love... I have everything that I need.... As I'm living with the presence of God's purpose in my life, I got hope. 

Recently I really have mosquito very badly. My leg was the worse part of my body. Itchy+++ 

Besides, the worse thing is my patient. He diagnoses as dengue hemorrhagic fever. Pity boy... Need suffer a lot. I suffered with him as well as every hour I need to disturb him and his condition was very bad when I been called in to work purposely for him. Omg... But God, I know because of it, I gain more experience to nurse a dengue patient. The doctor was so kind enough to teach me how to manage, that's the time I really appreciate the planning on me when seem everything looks bad. My boss was appreciate that I'm taking this challenge to care for him and sacrifice my sleeping time for him as well. 

Thanks God for everything. Praise Lord.... Tomorrow thanks God again that I could focus on praise and worshipping as a member. Waiting.. Excited +++

04112013 post vision camp syndrome

In this camp, I learned two song. Name -让我

I don't know why while singing this song, my heart keep beating... I can't really sing much, my tears keep dropping and knowing that I'm filled with Holy Spirit and I want to move forward because of him. 

祢用重價救贖我，使我脫離罪惡河
叫我這不配的人，憑信得救
你賜聖靈幫助我，使我勝過老舊我
祈求恩主領我，邁向屬靈高峰

讓我讚美非僅美詞，讓我敬拜非僅方式
讓我服事非靠雙手，而禱告非僅用口
讓我愛人不要虛假，讓我待人由心而發
讓我學習順服，以聖潔為裝飾

I think the most thing I learned is to obey and serve with my heart. Don't know since when my heart has been cooling down in serving God. I know that I'm the person may step backward anytime when I'm not keep moving on. One of the criteria I asked God for a man that who may move forward with me in faith, serving, and my life should not move backward as I'm along with him. 

While keep singing this song, I know that I have nothing to worry about. God's grace is sufficient for me, I should be trying my best to work hard for what I can for his kingdom. Amen. 

My job would be, pray hard, serve, love, care and learn to obey and do whatever I can to be more like Jesus. I'm a follower of Jesus, I should crazy for him alone. 

01112013 Vision camp

Today is the best relax day for me as I'm away from my degree homework, my usual friends, my colleague, my family.... Mixing around with the youth of the church. At first I think that I could have long time didn't join them for fun. They are really energetic as what I'm doing when I'm in their age. 

At the van, we all were busy in our devices that we have. 

Yi Heng- sleeping with the ear phone on.

Yong Qi- with her phone on

Serena Mars-same with her phone.

Daphne and me- with our iPad on. 

Zi Cheng- with Dvid new HTC phone on. 

Dvid is the one driving us to the destination. 

I'm the elders in this van, thanks God, Jing Ming bro. With us on this early trip. 

 

After checking in, we was staying at the room for some hours waiting for the sun to be more soothing. 

While waiting, I'm playing the 非常完美 so that we could have something to do while waiting. But, after few hours, we get bored with the programme. All back to the devices again.... As 低头族， I'm not use to it. Btw, I'm just fail to get them up for something that can bring them lively. 

This was the place we stay. Suria Appartment. 

Address: Jalan Bukit Merah, Bukit Merah, Taiping.

I enjoyed blogging at this relaxed place. It make me reflect back while I'm relaxing in Pulau Perhentian. I wish I could have a trip again to any of the island. I want..... I wish.... My dream.... 

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This four days were the best and heaviest day that I learned how to examine my patient from head to toe. This was one of the best reason I get the degree courses. God, I had met one of my dream that I could learn to know how a doctor examine the patient and know how to examine my patient from head to toe. Thanks God. 

This is my modal.... Yahoo.....

I looks fat in this picture... Omg.... I wanna slim down for the next aim.... 

27102013

Today is the worse day I ever had. I'm late for my praise and worship practice. I feel wanna die while the first thing I awake and look at the clock is at 8.15am. 

My heart may need to stop at that moment. Omg....

While I'm rushing to go church, I'm really panic. My friend also panic on behalf of me. 

I'm stunning and don't know what to do at the first place. 

When I called stephanie, I can't get her. The next step I called wendy to tell her I'm gonna be late as I'm overslept. I'm really regret as last night I'm going to my friends farewell party for late night. I thought I can get my alarm and also my friend will wake me up as they are going to work in the early morning. But, it seem both never works well. I'm late......

Guilty +++ I'm crying like hell while having the holy communion. Pastor want us to pray for each other two by two. While wendy pray for me, I'm crying more worse, in that moment I really sorry to her, I can't even pray for her. 

When I left the stage, Angeline saw me. She give me a hug and I feel better and thanks to her. 

What a such day I have..... Bad memory and dream. 

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Today when I watched the 非常完美 this programme, I heard the emotional guest 杨冰阳 told the girl who fail to get the hearts of the guy that she confess a statement. 

"女生要选那些喜欢你的人里面的最好的，而不是选你最喜欢的。只有这样你才能够获得一份安稳的幸福， 否则就算你获得了爱情，你也不一定能够获得婚姻。”

Actually is right too.... The emotional guest is really pretty and nice. I admire her....

Another guy I think he is attractive...

When he confess... Wow.... Attractive man...

19102013

AtToday is BLS day. My basic life support day. Haiz... I think I'm fail. Finally... But I did learn something. I think I'm able to pass my pals training than as I'm practicing while in this training. 

Today, basically I got some planning. I plan to have lunch with my colleague, but end up I need to buy my lunch -favor laksa with pasembur and for my parents as well... I'm damn hungry while driving back home.... Omg.... This feeling is really really bad... Like hungry ghost. 

Attending my cousin wedding at cititel hotel. First time my dad getting late cause of me. I wish to have a nap before go. 

Not bad for this wedding place.... Hihi... Yes. Western style... Do not have the singer from the floor is what I wish. Thanks God, my ear was feeling good. 

Finally the wedding was over. 

While waiting the dinner be over, I'm thinking of the programme "非常完美” again. 

She stated about the movie "那些年我们一起追过的女孩” . She mentioned about the main character 沈佳宜 told the guy that although we are same age, but most girl will be more mature than the guy. Although the relationship between will be very sweet, but the end of the story the girl also had choose to married another guy. That's the reason of it. Wow.... This statement impressed me. 

非常完美

This is my first time watch this programme. While doing night shift, all my colleague was discussing the people that joined the programme just I'm alone with no idea about this. I'm really outdated.

After that when reach home, I had downloaded many of it and waiting for some free time to have a quick look what is all about. 

Today I had start my first episode of the programme. I'm not really sure is that the first episode, but I enjoyed watching that with tears keep dropping. My first time feeling of heartbreak for the girl who confess her love to the guy but both been rejected by the guy. They are pretty, but get rejected as well... 

This girl really amazing, she dare confess in public. Thumbs up. Not every man can do that too. :)

I can feel the disappointment from this girl. Haiz... Hope her can let go... Love him, so must let him be with who he loved most, right? Hope the guy won't regret. :)

But I do proud of them as I'm really not dare to tell my love one that I love him. I'm really regret as i had miss the chance to confess and tell the truth feeling to someone I love. One thing I hope was for those I love, he could have a girl could love him and he loved her as well. I really wish that my loved guy was not forces to accept me as he hope not to hurt me.

Previously when I plan to study the counseling, I really hope I could have knowledge and good experience to help those in hurts standing up and enjoy a great future, but now I'm not healthy enough to counseling them. I didn't have a good example as what I am thinking. God, you fixed me please...

12102013

Today early morning I had done some crazy thing in my unit.

Jus thinking to do so.... I'm just like crazy... Party... That's me... Forever can't even change...

God, I promise I will take good care of my self, my body, my heart, my soul... Sometimes I really get confuse as I'm really not sure is that I'm missing the moment or the people. But I guess, I'm really regreted for what it been happened. So, for now onward, I hope I'm not doing anything that I would regret in my future.

Be what I should be, no matter how, God is with me. 

Caring, you are my everything. I know where is my stage, where is my profession, and which style I should carry on. 

Some people I do miss them, but I can't get to them anymore. 

I like this verse... Bent sadly... When I read at it... It bring down my mood... 

I just may leave it, pray and blessed them with all my heart and with what I can do to them in future to help and build them. This is what I pray God, I do not need to side by side with them, I can pray, I can help in a different way. God, you know my hearts, my feeling and my thought, you know me the best. I pray that God you will help me fix it right? Thanks God. 

Today I have take this picture early morning when I drive back. I like weather, hmm... Is that I'm depending on the weather? No. I like that as this is a part of God's creation. Weather is good or bad, God still make miracle happen right? Is just same with my life, whether I'm good or bad, God still can fix it and give me strength to overcome all this. God, I need you, I praise you.

When I reach I working place, I still having sometimes to rest. I read the daily devotion that I had downloaded when I'm lazy to continue the chapter from the bible. 

Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled. (Matthew 5:6 KJV)

God want us as a Christian to have sometimes spending with this poor people. Not just fill their soul with the words of God, by giving the hunger people some food, poor people some cloths and fulfil their need in their life. God, what can I do? 

God, please bless me with the wisdom and faith in you so that I can complete the mission that given from you in this world. I love you Lord. ❤️❤️❤️

11102013

Today actually I can have much time to rest... But don't know why, I insomnia once again... What happened to me? 

While driving to work... While singing praise and worship song, I think about the movie "good doctor". I really got back the passion. I'm asking myself, where is the stage that God has planned to me, I got the answer ready. I can be better, I should not always thinking of myself. Sometimes I do know that what I'm working hard for is not what God wants me to be. I should have know the purpose of God giving me this new life. Just for him... "Just be myself". 

Sometimes I'm thinking that which dress is suitable for me? Which style I suppose to be? I finally get the answer, "be who I mean for" 

Omg... Times flies... I need to back to my position soon, I hope I can be knowing what I'm trying hard for... God, give me wisdom that I should be having. Thanks God.