18072011 I'm aeroplane "queen"

Today I'm not working, is the 4th day i get my off... Really good and enjoyable. My colleague wake me up from 9am and the come over for breakfast with me here. I bring them to the nearest "dim sum" place to have breakfast...
After that due to the time we want to visit our "boy" chin hong, we go sunway carnival have a walk and bring my "oversea" friends have a look in the mall..
When in sunway, They brought some cloths, shoes... but me and one of my colleague buy books...
we shop until nothing can be done, we go for sing k in amp square... 1st time sing k with my colleague, quite fun actually.
after that we drive to tambun to visit our patient "chin hong" and give him some donation that we collected from our ward staff and have a seafood dinner there... Really satisfy.
But, in the others hand, I leave Joseph an aeroplane again. Yesterday I had promised him to spend time with him when he came to find me since he is off duty today. But I cant even spare the time with him, it because sudden chester sms me that the meeting for the camp changed tonight in church. I need to attend as well. Since like this, I have to cancel my date with him. He seem not happy and I just can say sorry to him, nothing much. He say he had use to it, seen his birthday I also can did it to him as well.. OMG... I'm really sorry. I dont mean it, It really sudden have the change under my expectation. God's works and his date, I choose to have works of God at 1st priority. Very sorry Joseph... I don't mean to disappointed him, as I'm not going to be his girl yet but i still wanna be his friend honestly.
He keep asking how was the months that i promised him? I din seem to promised any thing to him, just i say i need time to consider that's it... It too rush for me to consider my partner with just 1 months and more and less. It's not gonna be works for me...I can't make this decision with such a short period, and also we just starting to know each other and is to simplified.
God please help me with kinda decision making... I give it up to u...
Beside this guy, "he" still will ask me how was me and joseph. This is what I feel warm to. I everyday will sms if not also "wats app" chatting with "him". "he" seem to be more care about me, but still the same, he not going to move forward as I had critically moving "him" as well...It seem frustrated sometimes...
but very weird is, when meeting talking about him, my leader chester will look at me and ask me is it I can help to encourage "him" to join us...OMG... He not going to join us as he don't like to be restricted. "his" best bro is sitting beside me, I pass my hp message to let him know what's "he" is thinking hope he help me to persuade chester as well.
Finally they called Jc to talk to him, haha.... I told "him" after I know this...I call him to wait...It gonna happen soon....hahahaha....I'm really bad man ^^

19072011 transformer day

Today I'm quite tired after last night meeting until so late.
But in the afternoon, my tiring gone some where, I wish to watch transformer with my colleague, so I ask them whether wanna watch together after work. My friends go with me together and we watch the Transformer 3D in queensbay mall.
I like the movie so much although is a bit late for me. Movie start on at 9.15pm. duration is 2 and half hour, when ends the movie is been 11.45pm. I'm late...
My dad is waiting me at the gate when I reach home at 12.20am... OMG, his face like charcoal.

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3days 2nights camp
When after work I get to the camp, "he" call me to go for dinner, but I can't,my parent had prepare my dinner for me in hotel,then I reject his invitation. "He" sms me that 'si gui dun want join us eat ah..'
I'm willing to join..but, I can't too bad. Then that night I very scare, I didn't get out for ps to pray. But pastor remember that I didn't get out for him to pray...OMG...so.observance...scary...
"He" call us to go out for supper. We 5 of us out for supper after that I still got sms with him again until both of us tired and sleep.
The next morning "he" also sms wake me up for breakfast. So good..that's why I willing to boil a set of half boil egg for her.
Next service the pastor remember me and nicole not yet get prayed so call both of us out and pray. I get many words from God via pastor when pray for me...he told me that god love me. And call me to love myself more...no one else will look down on me,coz Jesus love me, I should love myself. On the spot,I cry till very loud, on that moment, mum come and give me a great hug. I really feel warm and safe. I can feel the warm feeling that god healing touch me from bottom of my heart...I feel the great warm healing, is true... I'm back to the heart of worship..is all about god. I love you.
Lunch we go 50cents take lunch together. My fish and chip jz acceptable, just the potato salad is nice and spaghetti is delicious too especially beef.
Four of us not going back for the games, we go Gurney buy the ticket for tomorrow and shopping..
I brought a ring in black shape is star...very nice.it cost me RM 6.90..
Night time we walk in big group for dinner, all share and take..wow..just like a family, I love that. After that is another service, pastor pray for those people that willing to heard gods words...and then is time for supper again.
Our family and "his" family and bryan's parent join us supper at food court. "He" told me that he have something to show me, is about mys. After supper, we go to Chan's room to have fun with his kids ians and until his kids going to sleep and start crying for. And I walked to 612 that's xl and het room,"he" sms told me he is there to wait for talking with me. He show me what mys sent her. OMG...can't believe that. Not she say that she is not going to boader him anymore and still sms him for kinda things.
Is out of my business so let it be, just proud that "he" share to me what he going, that what he do. I'm so glad, that's why till now I still like him so much can't let go...Haiz...
We sms*ING again till sleep...
Next day we take breakfast differetlu but still we have talk to each other...when near ending of the service "he" sms ask me when to go off, we plan to go off at 2pm....
So bad thing is when we go lunch I found him sms*ING someone.bit duno who is that...
I borrow his HP, accidently got a sms came in, is Esther, OMG...slight disomfort seen. But I very sure that he didn't like her and he told me at night that Esther very understand him, that he won't like her, just treat her good as her sister only. And told me FY and FL got told him that dun treat them too good, they scare they will like him..lolz..he so pround of that...hahahaha...

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I taught I earn alot... but the fact is...I also spend alot...

Today my purse is bleeding.....
Totally I spend about RM 369 for car service.....
another RM36 for petrol ....
for parent total RM450....
bill for handphone usually we will give RM100 per month although I'm not spending much on that....
RM50 for internet access fees...
RM 400 for car loan OMG.....
Keep bleeding ~~keep keep bleeding hearts.....
1 day settle all this kinda statement... total 1.4k.... *faint...

Besides, today is my mum's birthday. I buy a cake for her too...Everything is all about $$....
I'm poor start on today....Damn poor.............

Today when I awake is been afternoon bout 2pm. Saw my HP message "he" is leaving me a sms...as well as Joseph had a misscall when I in deep sleep.
After I reply "his" sms I also drop a sms for Joseph. Finally he called me, still the same things he is telling me as well as sound frustrated that I'm still wondering to accept him. But for me, for this moment I'm sure I won't have a feeling to like hum as well as know him. Hope ain't stress up myself, I honestly told him what I feel.
He seem angry and ended our conversation just like this, make me feel bad...he is bad temper man...honestly. for goodness said, I still drop a last message for him as below~
I always believe True love takes time to develop. And honestly tell u.I scare u more then that. U are quite easy get temper. Less patient. I scare I won't having good patient to tolerate that. JS few times we chat but I still can know this. Sorry I'm so straight forward. Dun say I'm not giving u chance.but I'm very sure in future when u get ur another partner n then u will get Wat I mean. As a sis advice u, dun too rush to search for a partner n tell her u like her, she will walk away from u soon. Get time to know her n know what she think and as u will get use to her life and u will easily get her heart.~~~
After this message I hope he will be more mature in thinking, and as I know I won't get his message or phone call future. That what I expected.haha...is good news to me as well.
Today is mummy's birthday, we plan to have a celebration at autocity restaurant "xian ding Wei" hope mummy will like it... Will post sine delicious pic as later I goes on..

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05072011

Today like usual after night straight away back my home sweet home and sleep....sleep until my dad keep calling me to take my lunch that he brought for me...chee cheong fun. When I take that it seem tasteless to me.I'm having running nose and flu badly.
Bout 11am "he" sms me, I really not realize he is there to chat with me. Until I'm awake is bout 5 hours later. We chat through msn as well as sms...quite cheerful i am...
But when come to work...everythg become worse...busy working life...meet some so call selfish people....I hate it...
Why still having kinda selfish people around this world... So much frustrated with them...1st time going to scold the clinic nurse for the brainless action...maybe due to overstress of my staff...some of them damn selfish...
I'm not looking down someone that differ races, just they always make me feel bad when working together...
U and my job is differ, u get less paid but don't mean I need to work for you too...
Damn......hate it....~~~ miss my bed right now...headache...sleepy...flu....very uncomfortable...

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long skirt from Gurney...03072011

From RM 55 discount till RM 48.... But I still love the long skirt....finally I own that....love it so much....

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03072011-04072011 Complicated DAyS....

Today as usual I need to get to work. Working on Sunday is killing me. Unable to attend Sunday service and also, the important things is my dearest “bro” and sister is watching transformer today. It brings my mood swing during the day. By the time confirmed with my sister that they plan to watch transformer today, I sudden feel quite down, even work also still the same. I keep nagging with my colleague that I wanna watch that movie, anyone can accompany go with. My colleague all pity me and plan to watch with me, but unable to set a date yet. Then after work I date 1 of my colleague go hang out with me as I feel I’m quite down with my mood. She suggest me to stay overnight in her place so that I can hang out with them more late.

After settle my parent with a call for them, I plan to stay with my colleague for 1 night. As my mood is not well and I hope I can just ignore to see and heard what I not prefer and goes on with what I feel. I just go with a pair of shirt n pants… and go gurney….

Shopping….I ♥ it so much. Just within an hour I brought a hair band, a shirt ~ from MNG, and a long skirt… it spend me about RM 78… OMG…. But I love this so much. After that have my ice-cream again, then is the main point ~~~~OVERTIME, Gurney.

When reach overtime, wow… many youngster is seating inside to have their “drink”. Quite good feel when get in, just the thing I hate is the smoke… Quite few of the smokers there, but still acceptable. I ordered a drink, Lega… beers, it quite smooth…I ♥ it…

“he” still not reply my sms and I still waiting… At my colleague~ kelly’s house. I online fb checking is it he is replying my message or got online or not, but still none. After that we put on a mask like a pillow talk…. I tell what I feel until she get into deep sleep…LOL… funny…

Next day, my hp still is no incoming sms…

When I awake, Kelly has dress up. I faster dress up myself waiting for another 3 more colleague for breakfast at my favorite stall~ ROTI BAKAR.

After that, we went home… I saw “he” is msn me since morning. “He” told me transformer is nice. As I told him, I know so friends just can be till Saturday night… not best friend something like that and start on our argument. He thought I’m so kiddies, just cause of the movie I need to be like this. I keep argue with “him”, finally I cried out…. With all tears and heart breaks, I start on this is just want to let him feel what I feel, just no other meaning. “He” taught I’m accusing him as he fault. OMG…. The situation become so worse…I’m so sad bout that…and keep apologist and I’m not that mean, even “he” also told sis that what happen on me. He is not the one who suggests watching the movie yesterday. But as sis told me “he” is the one and with Jeff makes this suggestion. OMG… is little misunderstanding there. Haiz… I think I had been left over a bad impression on him. God please lead me. Even like a person also suffer like this…. Damn….

After that we chat like usual, he finally told me that why he didn’t reply my sms and he on msn is because he know I’m not working today and purposely on msn to chat with me easier, make me sinner and bad… and I do told him that I from sat waiting his sms till today… OMG… terrible…

Is time for us to cool down…. And is my sleep time….bed time… nitez….

02072011

Today I help my colleague to do OT for her..
Actually damn tired,but happy because my working partner is.really good..we work together, laugh together...and help each other..thing really done well and smooth.
I can off duty on time, go church youth on time...nothings special.just "he" make me disappointed again..
I wish him to help in printing out my favour song, but ur doesn't and din reply my sms after afternoon...
In angel, I didn't talk with him much...he also same,just came n pass the chair for me after service.I feel bad..is ok..I.must use to.it as I'm not "somebody" to him..
When sharing today, I do miss my colleague friends..miss the life there...thanks god I had my best friend there. Do really miss.them...

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30062011

Today is 1st time I meet Joseph at qb...I not going alone to meet him, is with my roommate, stephy Ho. She is with me as I plan to buy a earing to awards myself as I do so.much OT for earning purpose.~sigh~
When I reach joseph's working place- universal travel, he cames out I gave him the late birthday cards and chat with me few minutes as I plan to have my dinner with stephy at "xian ding Wei" restaurant.

Before that I called "him" to ask where's the place, "he"told me is just upper or lower the BR...OMG..is wrong direction...fortunately I asked Joseph again.hahahaha...
"He" keep sms me through out the night...he quite concern the relationship in between me and Joseph.Haiz...but he still won't admit he got slightly "more concern" bout me...Haiz...
How I gonna proof to "him"? My sense was wrong? Or "he" is confusing me...either way...
When I reach home, Joseph chat with me through MSN, asking why I back home without meet him again, as I told him before if he keep asking me the ques can I be his girls, I won't be able to meet and ans him again. He told me he will give more time for us...OMG...is killing me again...

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