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I think I had addicted to this movie so much. From revising the previous series of this movie, I had learn and impressed me such a way that I could really love my patient more and more. 

While I'm lying on my bed, thinking something that happened while working, I miss my patient. Eventhough just now I'm attending the prayer meeting at church, I think of one of my patient while I take care him in a critical period. Reflect back what I had done, what I had been doing in this few years, I'm just nothing if without purpose. I love them, so I care of them. Now my aim all around was I wanna go for working holiday, but when I pray for the people in Philippine, I sudden think of my parents. How could I let them worry about me while I'm in out station. I know that my dad definitely will miss me if I'm in out station. In another hand, I wish I could have go for my dream as well. What and how should I pray for? 

I really hope my life can back to healthy and normal as usual people. But with my weird working time and hours, I think just like the doctors in this movie, I'm oncall anytime. This early morning I get a call from hospital, I thought they just called me once, but while I checked on my phone in the evening, they had call me three times. I think urgently I need to call back and like what I guess they was asking me to back to work on this day. 

Honestly I hate unplanned thing happen in my life, but life is full of surprise and I can't predict what can be happened next. Just like what I face everyday in my working life, I need to accept a child has diagnose brain tumour, a child died in front of me, a child collapse.... Many thing else. 

I always think that how could I react if one day my parent or family died in front of me? Can I mange to handle it? I'm not scare of dying actually, I know where I going to go while I'm dead, but if for my family and parents, I think I will miss them. I know I could meet them one day I back to my Heavenly Father, just that I can't mange the feeling of losing someone I love most. 

God, I know you loved me. Every time I sing praise that I love you as you has love me before, I will get touch and tears. I know how much blessing you have done in my life. My parents was the greatest gift that you blessed me. They really love me so much. They served can care of me like an angel around me. Sometimes I really think that their love is more than enough for me, so how about my Heavenly Father? He even sacrificed more, right? 

Haiz... What I can do for now? What I suppose to do? Can anyone tell me? I always think of what I'm doing right now is not good enough. I can do better than this. I can love my parent and my God more and more. God, please help me to do so and I will always love you and worship you with all my life. Thanks God.