12-13 Nov Youth leader training and vision camp

Finally I'm back from the Youth training camp. Quite tiring but thank God I still not totally flat up after camp. Still able to write my blog and go shopping with my sis. 

I think one of the reason I tell myself not to take a nap as I scare I can't get into sleep tonight... I need to work continuous 3 days after it. The schedule quite pack and tiring too. This weekends hope I could get sometime to back to church again. 

I LOVE youth, I got the vision on that, but I really feel sorry after this morning discussing with my leaders. Gradually I had lost the urge to guide them, not because I'm don't love them anymore, I think should be feel ashamed as I know I'm not improving, but they had done well in God's lead.

My lovely youth leader, Chester share a good healthy drink with us that VIT C.
Total 5 C 

Commitment, Concentric, Contemporary, Community service, Christianity. 

 I think mostly all of the working adult like me had lost the commitment on that, that's what our youth leader keep mention that. My commitment not stable, mostly due to my working time is not fix and also the urge to lead the youth is lesser in time. Sometimes do feel a gap between working adult and youth, but that's not a problem for now. Most of us still can chat with the youth but the problem is our spiritual growth. I'm just thinking that, what happen with all the working adult? Are we step backward or we should really gather together and spend time praying together with this Vision.
What the pastor share is good today,we should have VISION, but we also need to act as a ROLE MODEL. If we don't have a good spiritual life, how we lead them as an example?
We shouldn't lead when we unable to manage ourself well. God please strengthen us, I should keep praying for all the working adult youth leader, physically, mentally, spiritually healthy so that we could lead them, commit onto it and serve without complaining. How much I could spend my time to pray for them, guide them and take care of them, it show how much I love you, God. I know If I say I love you, but I didn't spend time for you and your people, I telling a lie... I'm sorry... keep telling lie...
God please help me back to the heart of serving this young people. I need your love, your strength. As I know without you, I'm nothing.