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1 Timothy 5

Easy-to-Read Version (ERV)

5 Don’t speak angrily to an older man. But talk to him as if he were your father. Treat the younger men like brothers.2 Treat the older women like mothers. And treat the younger women with respect like sisters.

Taking Care of Widows

3 Take care of widows who really need help. 4 But if a widow has children or grandchildren, the first thing they need to learn is this: to show their devotion to God by taking care of their own family. They will be repaying their parents, and this pleases God. 5 A widow who really needs help is one who has been left all alone. She trusts God to take care of her. She prays all the time, night and day, and asks God for help. 6 But the widow who uses her life to please herself is really dead while she is still living. 7 Tell the believers there to take care of their family so that no one can say they are doing wrong. 8 Everyone should take care of all their own people. Most important, they should take care of their own family. If they do not do that, then they do not accept what we believe. They are worse than someone who does not even believe in God.

9 To be added to your list of widows, a woman must be 60 years old or older. She must have been faithful to her husband. [a] 10 She must be known for the good she has done: raising children, welcoming travelers into her home, serving the needs [b] of God’s people, helping those in trouble, and using her life to do all kinds of good.

11 But don’t put younger widows on that list. When their strong physical needs pull them away from their commitment to Christ, they will want to marry again. 12 Then they will be guilty of not doing what they first promised to do. 13 Also, these younger widows begin to waste their time going from house to house. They also begin to gossip and try to run other people’s lives. They say things they should not say. 14 So I want the younger widows to marry, have children, and take care of their homes. If they do this, our enemy will not have any reason to criticize them. 15 But some of the younger widows have already turned away to follow Satan.

16 If any woman who is a believer has widows in her family, she [c] should take care of them herself. Then the church will not have that burden and will be able to care for the widows who have no one else to help them.

More About Elders and Other Matters

17 The elders who lead the church in a good way should receive double honor [d]—in particular, those who do the work of counseling and teaching. 18 As the Scriptures say, “When a work animal is being used to separate grain, don’t keep it from eating the grain.” [e] And the Scriptures also say, “A worker should be given his pay.” [f]

19 Don’t listen to someone who accuses an elder. You should listen to them only if there are two or three others who can say what the elder did wrong. 20 Tell those who sin that they are wrong. Do this in front of the whole church so that the others will have a warning.

21 Before God and Jesus Christ and the chosen angels, I tell you to make these judgments without any prejudice. Treat every person the same.

22 Think carefully before you lay your hands on anyone to make him an elder. Don’t share in the sins of others. Keep yourself pure.

23 Timothy, stop drinking only water, and drink a little wine. This will help your stomach, and you will not be sick so often.

24 The sins of some people are easy to see. Their sins show that they will be judged. But the sins of some others are seen only later. 25 It is the same with the good things people do. Some are easy to see. But even if they are not obvious now, none of them will stay hidden forever.

Today is the last day I'm staying at KL. I miss KL actually. I know today I'm gonna rushing for time and my mood will gonna swing and hurt others. Early morning I had pray for that, God please give me patience. I need that much of patience to handle it.

I know I'm moody. Thanks God he still with me when I'm "Emo~ing"

I had persuaded myself to control my Emo.... Happily I had my breakfast, but when rushing of time for sis and bro. in law, I can't control that. Everything is out of my plan. My friend can't accompany me as she get an accident on the way she coming to meet me. So bad luck today as I still wish I could have everything stick to my plan. God, are you kidding with me? thanks God I still able to shop alone. I brought a dress as I know I need to buy something to make my mood better. I need to take a break and breath.

I dislike this trip. Everything is seem not my bussiness. All my families need get their thing done. I just a barrier to let them get things done. My purpose is shopping but I seem not in mood for shopping everytime. All the while is rushing of time. I hate that feeling so much. I post on FB in "happy" mode because I wish I could act as what I post. But... is totally differ with what I posted. When I know what my bro in law~Foon had face. I become more stressful. I know I'm not the only one in bad mood. He had the right to get Emo. as what he face. I asked God, what you want me to learn in that case? I wish I could talk to him. But I don't have a empty time to have face to face with God. Everytime I just able to stick with my families. Although they are christian, But I still wish I could have a private place to have intimacy relationship with God. I need sometimes to spend with him. But I unable to have it.

On the way back, I keep myself in "good" mood until Chester tell me and ask me the location. I have a mindset that maybe I should have giveup the activities ~ to Seoul Garden so it make me feel more easy and good for everyone. But Chester said that he has been waiting me. So...finally I decided to go. I really feel bad when I know I'm going to be late for about one and half hour. That's the lastest in my life I had made. I feel really bad and the worse thing make me Emo is my parent keep telling the others that I'm the only one nagging in the car because of late. I hate that most... I don't know why when I heard that, I feel bad and I got a feeling that I done wrong at the 1st place. I shouldn't comes to attend this gathering. I'm totally loser... I'm useless to get on this gathering... I just able to eat and I'm not enjoyed it at all....
I really phobia to get in Seoul Garden anymore. God please lead me the way. I need your guidance. I need people to understand me. I need people to guide me. Please sent your spirit to guide and teach me. I need you Lord. Thanks God.