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Today was the first time of my life get up so early for my assignment. 2am in the morning waked up by my two alarms set on the day before as I'm really scare that I couldn't finish my assignment on time. 

Washed my face, get a cold drink to wake me up totally for ASSIGNMENT!!! 

I'm regret that why I can't get to do it before that. I never want to have this again in my life. First and also last time in my life, I begged. This sleepy feeling was killing me. 

Around 4am something my mother awake and saw I'm awake for my homework, she get shocked as well but she really a good mother. She knew I'm hungry and she make a cup go milo for me and take some breads for me as well. I'm touched. 

I told myself, I should be more hardworking as for a return for my parent. God, Please bless me with your wisdom and strength. Thanks.

Finally, I still can't finish my assignment before I need to prepare to go church. As today I'm serving as keyboardist, I can't afford to be late once again as I had promised God and myself as well. 

After reach church I'm still worried about my clinical log. Thanks God, praise and worship practice end quite early, I'm continue with my assignment with using Angeline's PC at church. Five minutes before I stop doing it and have my breakfast. My mom served me with two half boiled egg. So warm, I love my parent so much. 

I told myself after this assignment, at night I want to accompany my mom for shopping and sent my dad for dinner as well. I want to accompany them as much as possible. Feel sorry to them as I'm not spending much time to accompany them on Sunday. 

After praise and worship, I continue my assignment while bro. Alan was preaching. I know that's was not right to do it, but I'm rushing for that. I'm sorry to him and my God. 

Although that was not right, but God still help me to make my assignment finished on time. Praise Lord. After service, I'm helping my cell group in washing the cups as this Sunday was my cell group serving due. 

After that, I'm lost, all of them busy and rushing for lunch as they got Christmas presentation practice and I got do nothing for Christmas. Haiz. Once again I feel I'm lost. 

While waiting my parent, I'm sitting at the office and starring on the monitors of Angeline's PC. 

I snapped this picture. 

I'm damn damn bored. Lazy to start on another assignment as I'm physically tired but mentally I'm empty. 

The first thing I did while reached home, eat than sleep. 

Ever ing, after ready myself I sent my dad for dinner at Penang and I accompany my mom for shopping. Actually my mom wish I can buy a shoe for working to protect my leg. 

Before shopping, we should get our dinner first. Since now was November, I get the sushi king member on the spot and dine in with my mom.

That's long time I'm not step in sushi king with my family. I miss my sister as well. ;)

Today I had spend RM 359 for my shoe. My mom wish to buy me this, but I insist to buy it myself. She knew I'm quite tight for this months, but i don't want my parents to buy me anything as I'm working adult, I'm not suppose to burden them and I suppose to feed them as return right? God, my another aim was earn as much as possible to buy them some thing that they need. 

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Today actually I want to visit my friend's mother at general hospital. 

Quite pity her with what she has faced recently. But with the busy working hours has drags till the end of the visiting hours. She refuse to have dinner with us as she scare that we will treat her for dinner once again. Haiz... Actually I just want to give her a hug as a friend. 

I'm damn hungry actually, but my two other friends may wish to have some light dinner. 

So end up we have our light dinner at "Gloria Jeans coffee". Actually quite expansive place, I really wish to escape from that, but two of them was my BFF, since they we ware paying together, so I'm embarrassed to have the money back. God, please bless me.

They were not having spaghetti, I'm the one having dinner there. They just have drinks and pie only. Actually I'm quite tired, and I'm worried about my clinical log as the day after I could not have time to complete it. I want to go home. 

By the time I reached home, I'm exhausted. Can't even finished reading a sentence my eyes close itself. God, please give me time and wisdom to finish that.

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Today is the day that my mum and I was off. Last night my BFF Wendy Tan came my house for assignment, but end up we had our quiz done, but we could not finish our clinical log on time. Was late midnight near 1am. We end the discussion as previously we had spent much time in chit chatting regarding the happening during working hours. 

Thanks God that blessed me with such BFF that could share my happiness and sadness together. Thanks God. 

Early morning, I'm damn lazy to wake for breakfast, but last night I had told my parent to accompany them for "yam cha"~ ing. I had promised, how badly I miss my bed I still could not lay on "him" again.

 

I like this picture so much. ... ;)

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Early in the morning I still awake for the movie on call 36 I, to reflect back regarding the relationship among the actor and the storyline before the second series. Omg. It break my promise for myself regarding I would like to sleep early as I need to have a normal healthy life for God. God, I have violate it again. Forgive me.

Well, today I'm waking up as my cousin Jwei SMS date me for lunch. Hmm... Honestly I'm very lazy for doing anything for today. But, my dad definitely will ask me for lunch as well, so I better wake up and get ready for it. 

Finally we had our lunch at Butterworth chai leng park. The famous chicken rice would be our lunch for today. After lunch, my dad was going to Raja Uda for some reason. We went to the cafe that I planned last night LP MTB station. There would be a nice place to enjoy coffee like Starbucks. 

The concept of the cafe was nice and special. This mostly would be a good place for coffee and cycling lover to gather and chatting. 

Honestly I love this place and the concept. About the coffee, I like the drawing, design on the coffee, I love the coffee maker machine, but I dislike the coffee taste. Is too sweet for me as I'm not even put a sugar in my coffee (cappuccino). 

Hot Cappuccino. RM 7.90 

Hot hazenut RM 7.90 as well. 

Maybe I'm not hazenut lover, I don't think is smell good to me. :)

Concept of cycling and all the decoration is about love pedaling and their event. Feel good and special for this cafe. This is what I think to look for in my future. 

The picture all behind me.... Wow... Although I don't know them, but is a special place for us to know about them and their passion on cycling. 

Finally I reach home, there would be 15mins before 5pm. Oh my goodness, I had not start on my assignment for the day. By the way, I'm planning for hiking with jogging at Bukit D.O. that's recommended by Nicole. 

My cousin know the place and we get there around 5 something. There are such a nice place for the elders to gather as well. Many uncle and Aunty get there exercising and chit chatting. They are friendly. I love this feeling. I love them as well. I will get back here very often, maybe one day I could know them and bring them to Christ? Who's know? :) 

When I plan to go my car to take my hand phone to get some picture there, the weather turns bad. Thanks God, it started to rain while we get in my car. Praise Lord. He knew me well and planned for me before I pray for. Wow....

Can see the cloud? Just like three mountain and there are a bridge... 

Looks nice.... I love the creation of God very much. ;)

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I think I had addicted to this movie so much. From revising the previous series of this movie, I had learn and impressed me such a way that I could really love my patient more and more. 

While I'm lying on my bed, thinking something that happened while working, I miss my patient. Eventhough just now I'm attending the prayer meeting at church, I think of one of my patient while I take care him in a critical period. Reflect back what I had done, what I had been doing in this few years, I'm just nothing if without purpose. I love them, so I care of them. Now my aim all around was I wanna go for working holiday, but when I pray for the people in Philippine, I sudden think of my parents. How could I let them worry about me while I'm in out station. I know that my dad definitely will miss me if I'm in out station. In another hand, I wish I could have go for my dream as well. What and how should I pray for? 

I really hope my life can back to healthy and normal as usual people. But with my weird working time and hours, I think just like the doctors in this movie, I'm oncall anytime. This early morning I get a call from hospital, I thought they just called me once, but while I checked on my phone in the evening, they had call me three times. I think urgently I need to call back and like what I guess they was asking me to back to work on this day. 

Honestly I hate unplanned thing happen in my life, but life is full of surprise and I can't predict what can be happened next. Just like what I face everyday in my working life, I need to accept a child has diagnose brain tumour, a child died in front of me, a child collapse.... Many thing else. 

I always think that how could I react if one day my parent or family died in front of me? Can I mange to handle it? I'm not scare of dying actually, I know where I going to go while I'm dead, but if for my family and parents, I think I will miss them. I know I could meet them one day I back to my Heavenly Father, just that I can't mange the feeling of losing someone I love most. 

God, I know you loved me. Every time I sing praise that I love you as you has love me before, I will get touch and tears. I know how much blessing you have done in my life. My parents was the greatest gift that you blessed me. They really love me so much. They served can care of me like an angel around me. Sometimes I really think that their love is more than enough for me, so how about my Heavenly Father? He even sacrificed more, right? 

Haiz... What I can do for now? What I suppose to do? Can anyone tell me? I always think of what I'm doing right now is not good enough. I can do better than this. I can love my parent and my God more and more. God, please help me to do so and I will always love you and worship you with all my life. Thanks God. 

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After vision camp I had busy for whole week non-stop. For my assignment, my work, my patient... Omg.... 

Really thanks God for everything that he planned for me. Although the things happen for us seem was bad, but finally I get to learn to obey and I earned experience. Praise Lord, really appreciate his planning in my life. 

I got dream, I got passion, I got love... I have everything that I need.... As I'm living with the presence of God's purpose in my life, I got hope. 

Recently I really have mosquito very badly. My leg was the worse part of my body. Itchy+++ 

Besides, the worse thing is my patient. He diagnoses as dengue hemorrhagic fever. Pity boy... Need suffer a lot. I suffered with him as well as every hour I need to disturb him and his condition was very bad when I been called in to work purposely for him. Omg... But God, I know because of it, I gain more experience to nurse a dengue patient. The doctor was so kind enough to teach me how to manage, that's the time I really appreciate the planning on me when seem everything looks bad. My boss was appreciate that I'm taking this challenge to care for him and sacrifice my sleeping time for him as well. 

Thanks God for everything. Praise Lord.... Tomorrow thanks God again that I could focus on praise and worshipping as a member. Waiting.. Excited +++

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In this camp, I learned two song. Name -让我

I don't know why while singing this song, my heart keep beating... I can't really sing much, my tears keep dropping and knowing that I'm filled with Holy Spirit and I want to move forward because of him. 

祢用重價救贖我，使我脫離罪惡河
叫我這不配的人，憑信得救
你賜聖靈幫助我，使我勝過老舊我
祈求恩主領我，邁向屬靈高峰

讓我讚美非僅美詞，讓我敬拜非僅方式
讓我服事非靠雙手，而禱告非僅用口
讓我愛人不要虛假，讓我待人由心而發
讓我學習順服，以聖潔為裝飾

I think the most thing I learned is to obey and serve with my heart. Don't know since when my heart has been cooling down in serving God. I know that I'm the person may step backward anytime when I'm not keep moving on. One of the criteria I asked God for a man that who may move forward with me in faith, serving, and my life should not move backward as I'm along with him. 

While keep singing this song, I know that I have nothing to worry about. God's grace is sufficient for me, I should be trying my best to work hard for what I can for his kingdom. Amen. 

My job would be, pray hard, serve, love, care and learn to obey and do whatever I can to be more like Jesus. I'm a follower of Jesus, I should crazy for him alone. 

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Today is the best relax day for me as I'm away from my degree homework, my usual friends, my colleague, my family.... Mixing around with the youth of the church. At first I think that I could have long time didn't join them for fun. They are really energetic as what I'm doing when I'm in their age. 

At the van, we all were busy in our devices that we have. 

Yi Heng- sleeping with the ear phone on.

Yong Qi- with her phone on

Serena Mars-same with her phone.

Daphne and me- with our iPad on. 

Zi Cheng- with Dvid new HTC phone on. 

Dvid is the one driving us to the destination. 

I'm the elders in this van, thanks God, Jing Ming bro. With us on this early trip. 

 

After checking in, we was staying at the room for some hours waiting for the sun to be more soothing. 

While waiting, I'm playing the 非常完美 so that we could have something to do while waiting. But, after few hours, we get bored with the programme. All back to the devices again.... As 低头族， I'm not use to it. Btw, I'm just fail to get them up for something that can bring them lively. 

This was the place we stay. Suria Appartment. 

Address: Jalan Bukit Merah, Bukit Merah, Taiping.

I enjoyed blogging at this relaxed place. It make me reflect back while I'm relaxing in Pulau Perhentian. I wish I could have a trip again to any of the island. I want..... I wish.... My dream.... 

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This four days were the best and heaviest day that I learned how to examine my patient from head to toe. This was one of the best reason I get the degree courses. God, I had met one of my dream that I could learn to know how a doctor examine the patient and know how to examine my patient from head to toe. Thanks God. 

This is my modal.... Yahoo.....

I looks fat in this picture... Omg.... I wanna slim down for the next aim.... 

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Today is the worse day I ever had. I'm late for my praise and worship practice. I feel wanna die while the first thing I awake and look at the clock is at 8.15am. 

My heart may need to stop at that moment. Omg....

While I'm rushing to go church, I'm really panic. My friend also panic on behalf of me. 

I'm stunning and don't know what to do at the first place. 

When I called stephanie, I can't get her. The next step I called wendy to tell her I'm gonna be late as I'm overslept. I'm really regret as last night I'm going to my friends farewell party for late night. I thought I can get my alarm and also my friend will wake me up as they are going to work in the early morning. But, it seem both never works well. I'm late......

Guilty +++ I'm crying like hell while having the holy communion. Pastor want us to pray for each other two by two. While wendy pray for me, I'm crying more worse, in that moment I really sorry to her, I can't even pray for her. 

When I left the stage, Angeline saw me. She give me a hug and I feel better and thanks to her. 

What a such day I have..... Bad memory and dream.