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Yesterday after I working, I go for a gathering dinner with my colleague. Get fun and great dinner together with them @ Madam Soon- Egate. Although been fool by them with hiding my handphone as I'm keep on "line" with my other friend. They had warn me, but I still keep "line"~ing... Finally they hide my hp with them, and I been fool by them before I get my phone back.. OMG.
 

Another thing is, I make a second mistake that's I had told myself not to do it again. That's I wish my friend to honest with me. I remember one last time I did it to my best brother, and we had some argument after that, that's the sadest moment in my life... I can sudden tear in public when that period... OMG... Really regret what I did, If I don't know it and ask for it, I think our relationship will not be like this. But everything happen in God's plan. Maybe that's one part in God's plan, who know? I learn to forgive and forget.

At 1st when I know he try to cheat on me, I really angry and but when I think of that reason he did it, I think I really get touch and hope he won't lie on me next time. I really scare what happen last time was happen to us as the same. I really hope I can out of that....

感觉-约书亚团队

Watch "約書亞 - 感覺" on YouTube
挂着憔悴的容颜 走过灰暗的长街
带着心碎的感觉 生命一点一点枯萎
有什么人能体会 在我心里的残缺
到底有什么能够 让我来将一切挽回
恐惧惊慌害怕 我该如何去面对
我不断逃离不断躲藏
却也摆脱不了这梦魇
悲伤苦痛交错 要到何时才能终结
一直到遇见了你
填满了我心里面的空缺
让我再次展开双眼 给我一个全新视野 让我能够感觉 再次感觉
不断感觉生命喜悦
你给我的永远誓言 象彩虹般划过天边 人生不再残缺
奉献出所有一切 一切也无所谓

I like the chorus part.. hope God can give me a new vision that I could serve him,build me up and lead me to the promised land.

12-13 Nov Youth leader training and vision camp

Finally I'm back from the Youth training camp. Quite tiring but thank God I still not totally flat up after camp. Still able to write my blog and go shopping with my sis. 

I think one of the reason I tell myself not to take a nap as I scare I can't get into sleep tonight... I need to work continuous 3 days after it. The schedule quite pack and tiring too. This weekends hope I could get sometime to back to church again. 

I LOVE youth, I got the vision on that, but I really feel sorry after this morning discussing with my leaders. Gradually I had lost the urge to guide them, not because I'm don't love them anymore, I think should be feel ashamed as I know I'm not improving, but they had done well in God's lead.

My lovely youth leader, Chester share a good healthy drink with us that VIT C.
Total 5 C 

Commitment, Concentric, Contemporary, Community service, Christianity. 

 I think mostly all of the working adult like me had lost the commitment on that, that's what our youth leader keep mention that. My commitment not stable, mostly due to my working time is not fix and also the urge to lead the youth is lesser in time. Sometimes do feel a gap between working adult and youth, but that's not a problem for now. Most of us still can chat with the youth but the problem is our spiritual growth. I'm just thinking that, what happen with all the working adult? Are we step backward or we should really gather together and spend time praying together with this Vision.
What the pastor share is good today,we should have VISION, but we also need to act as a ROLE MODEL. If we don't have a good spiritual life, how we lead them as an example?
We shouldn't lead when we unable to manage ourself well. God please strengthen us, I should keep praying for all the working adult youth leader, physically, mentally, spiritually healthy so that we could lead them, commit onto it and serve without complaining. How much I could spend my time to pray for them, guide them and take care of them, it show how much I love you, God. I know If I say I love you, but I didn't spend time for you and your people, I telling a lie... I'm sorry... keep telling lie...
God please help me back to the heart of serving this young people. I need your love, your strength. As I know without you, I'm nothing. 

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Thanks God I been through the night... Although many thg happen in a night, but I still believe God's grace is sufficient for me... He will always protect and with me no matter what happen... Hope nothing goes wrong tonight... Another one more night...
   That's my breakfast... Just one part of that... Because my dad had prepare another breakfast for me... But I accompany my collegue go for breakfast again... As I know if I'm not going, she will not take her breakfast too... She will be starving another day.. omg...
I'm glad that I got lovely parent to take care of me, thanks God..love them so much...

怎么会开始对你有了感觉

作詞：陳歆淇/許世昌 作曲：光良 編曲：吳慶隆 男聲：光良

美琪：我曾深刻體會 對愛感到膽怯 還好有懂 我的你給我安慰 光良：看你失落的臉 又在為愛憔悴 我心痛的 感覺竟如此的強烈

＊美琪：眼角的淚 它給過誰 光良：傷透了心 也無所謂 美琪：我會願意 靜靜的 陪在你身邊 光良：如果說愛 已不可為 美琪：那我寧願 藏心裡面 合唱：其實我害怕會失去你的感覺 哦～哦～

美琪：怎麼會開始對你有了 感覺 光良：又深怕朋友默契轉身 不見 合唱：矛盾著 猶豫不決 沒準備 跨越愛的界 線 怎麼會開始對你有了 感覺 深陷朋友戀人之間的 危險 進與退 被愛包圍 誰犯規 都狼狽 誰能解圍 讓一切完美

Repeat ＊

合唱：怎麼會開始對你有了 感覺 又深怕朋友默契轉身 不見 矛盾著 猶豫不決 沒準備 跨越愛的界 線 怎麼會開始對你有了 感覺 深陷朋友戀人之間的 危險 進與退 被愛包圍 誰犯規 都狼狽 誰能解圍 讓一切完美

合唱：怎麼會開始對你有了 感覺 又深怕朋友默契轉身 不見 矛盾著 猶豫不決 沒準備 跨越愛的界 線 哦～ 怎麼會開始對你有了 感覺 深陷朋友戀人之間的 危險 你和我 擁抱瞬間 不後悔 這曖昧 星光唯美 把愛放心裡面

光良：哦～哦～ 美琪：把愛放心裡面 哦～哦～ 合唱：把愛放心裡面 哦～哦～ 美琪：把愛放心裡面 合唱：嗚～ 美琪：嗯～

Duno why sudden got this song in my mind...keep singing...lolz..

Resting...

I could hope I can sleep like him... Where's my time... God, time rushing, my planning not yet settle... God please give me wisdom and hope the headache n all painful gastric away from me in Jesus name... Amen.

Everlasting God

 

The Lord's my light and salvation
 
Whom shall I fear? Of whom shall I be afraid (2x)

I will wait for you, I will wait for you 

I will remain confident in this I will see the goodness of the Lord (2x)

The Lord's my light and salvation Whom shall I fear? Of whom shall I be afraid (x2)

I will trust in you, I will trust in you (x2)

I will remain confident in this I will see the goodness of the Lord (x2)

We set our hope on You
We set our hope on Your love
We set our hope on the One who is the Everlasting God
You are the Everlasting God, You are the Everlasting(x2)

Repeat:

We set our hope on You
We set our hope on Your love
We set our hope on the One who is the Everlasting God
You are the Everlasting God, You are the Everlasting(x2)

I will remain confident in this I will see the goodness of the Lord (4x)

This song is awesome and impress me. 

I will trust in You, I will wait for your perfect plan. God show me you way. Lead me... Thanks Lord.
I want to back for the life to worship you anytime...
I will always remember to be a worshiper, a zealot of God, a righteous person in winning the favor of God. :)

What faith can do

 

Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think its more than you can take
But you are stronger, stronger than you know
Don't you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining

I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do

It doesn't matter what you've heard
Impossible is not a word
It's just a reason for someone not to try
Everybody's scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It'll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing

I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do

Overcome the odds
You don't have a chance
(That's what faith can do)
When the world says you can't
It'll tell you that you can!

I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do
That's what faith can do!
Even if you fall sometimes

You will have the strength to rise

This song really impressed me when I drive home from CG. If I'm not strong in faith in you Lord, I could hope I can stop at any shop and buy few tin of beer to make myself drunk. Sudden had a sad feeling in me, I wondering why. I suppose to be happy if my prayer does works... God I know you know me the best. You can give me strength to face this challenge you had plan for me. God I handle all this trouble to you. You lead me through. Give me strength that all I need for this time. And especially you LOVE cover me and fill me up so that I could try to learn to love and pray. Thank You Lord. In Jesus name. Amen.

2/11/2012

Early morning woke by a call from Taiwan association kl, he want my flight booking reference no. Omg...
But thanks God, I got a great lunch with my daddy...^^
My favor laksa with crispy chips and beef noodles. Yummy. Thanks God I could gave that.
Beside also need to thanks God save me out of an accident. If not I could be in trouble. Praise the Lord.

重来的力量

  關上門關了燈兩個人 這一秒你看我的眼神

理智在狂奔在無聲討論 當感覺已冰冷心還能否忠誠

不想就這麼放下給我重來的力量 不管傷多深只要我們還願意就有可能

帶著重來的渴望坦然過去的悲傷 每個懂愛的人一定也懂得等 等那值得的人 (直到最愛的人)

無法和你回到那種盛夏
能夠沉醉懷抱呆望窗紗

就這麼一個假日在乘涼
冰塊浸沒在紅茶
互抱著老掉也不怕

時間流過誰也要長大吧
而你和我前行全是分岔
自此分開了你落力前行
得我幼稚地停留
被歲月放大了牽掛

幾千天近況幸福嗎
每日忙碌嗎
仍然是那麼認真嗎
可有新戀人
成熟的戀人
成熟到沒再共你吵架

是我始終拒絕成長嗎
為何沒法裝作瀟灑
轉眼多少年
仍然想當年
仍然幼稚到又記起你
天真夠嗎

After listen to this two song will surely become "EMO" so better leave this two song behind. Really do hopes I can forget the past and look forward to FUTURE. God I know everything happen in your plan. Your plan is the best plan. I should obey and step forward.