12082011 John's Birthday

Today is his birthday, as before I sleep I what's app with him chit chatting until 12MN and wish him happy birthday again...
Early morning, I sent a sms to him again, but not wish him happy birthday. Is asking him where to celebrate his birthday and so on.
Today really a special day. Our ward census low, so we can chit chatting in front of the counter with Dr. Adele. Beside, she also tell us few point how to test your boy friend. She told us, if find a boy friend he need to care enough you and also your family. Beside, he also need to same intellectual with you. If not same, your communication will breakdown easily...very funny... and he need to help you do house work, if underwear also can help you wash, is the best. lolz...
After work, I fetch sis from QB mall and bring her to tutti fruitti to join my colleague.

See the fruits...looks nice right???
I love this with yogurt.
After that my colleague all go to KFC to take their dinner, me and my sis go for shopping. I went in ni chii i try this dress... I love that.


I love this color...I sent this pic to "him" too, he told me the dress not bad, why i didn't buy it. But, when after I fitting, Sis angry that she was waiting me so long when I'm in fitting. I miss the dress..Even he also say this is nice. ^^
When I reach home, he ask me to what's app him. He sent a lot of pic that he take the steak from VS... Wow...look delicious man. I love it..
He also sent some pic he take with the cakes his family brought for him as i request. I though he just will sent the cake pic for me, but he sent his picture with the cake and tart for me. Look nice the cake and tart. I also ask him to wake me up as usual I'm not working on day shift.
He did it too. Early morning he sms me about 8 somethings as he slept at 3am too. Wow.. just few hours he slept. If me, I can't make it. >.<

11082011

Today as usual, I have my day off and "he" sms waked me up by using "sms". But for sure I can't awake by this kinda sms notification sound, I still happy with "his" sms at least "he" remember me.
After my breakfast, we still sms and what's app chatting and we plan to have lunch together with xx and my dad as well.
Lunch time is coming, He called me and ask me to wait as planned place~ autocity. Since "he" was not having lunch in ice ice baby before, we plan to take lunch there. When I reach, "he" and xx had reach and we start to take order.
We have a good small gathering and lunch there. After lunch, I go and take my 1st credit cards and been activated...Yeah... my 1st credit card...I love it...
After all that, I go my friend's ~Alanis facial saloon to dress up and learn some make up. At first she help me to perm my hair as last night I tell her I like her hair style. Hmm... Actually I like curly hair, but It's looks old to me...OMG... dillemma..
Later on she teach some basic make up and ask me to learn up with the cosmetic I brought from her. I love make up, but I just need to spend more time to make it happen on me. "He" is not supporting me, just laugh at me as usual... OMG...
Night, we have a meeting for the camp on aug. in church. After the church meeting as usual we start what's app chatting and I just remember to ask "him" about the present. "he" say he likes it. This make me happy man... I love this answer honestly. "he" say "got heart eh ma like lo". Really makes me laugh on the spot. Anyways, if he likes it is more enough for me.

10082011

Today early morning I been waked up to go bank settle some stuff with my parent. When woke up, I sms tell "him" that I'm awake, he just laugh at me that I 1st time woke so early then yet so happy... OMG.
After settle all bank stuff, We go yam cha as breakfast.


After that we go bank again to apply a credit card as convenience use when pump petrol. Just take us few minutes, we settle all things and we sent my mum back to work and we back home have a rest.
Later on we go for lunch at nearby economic rice shops, when reach there, I saw an old uncle. He is so friendly to me and my dad as we had met him before at our X house in butterworth. I like the way he smile and when he talking to others, damn friendly. I like him ^^

Due to last night meeting, we need to come out a browser that what thing we need to bring. I try find out the browser that I have when we are wanted camp. Below pic is what I have...


night games...


I miss this camp so much as I learn and tried so many new things in my life exp flying fox... camp fire... wow... impressed..

08082011 Predestination

Today I been force to work today. Really not willing to go for working as I know my working partner not as good as yesterday. Badly, I as TL today too. As usual, when I driving to work place, I started with listen to worship song and start my day with worship and after that I pray as listed items in NECF pray and fast handbook.
Thanks God. God really answer my prayer. When I surrender all my stuff to God, he really protect and guide me. Everything I do just smooth as I wish, I better that what I'm praying for. It's amazing grace.
My TL jobs is well done and my patients is lesser and lesser. Sister plan to give me back as I'm the only one with OT today. So great, is just what I wish to and out of my expectation too. Thanks God. When I pass over to my colleague is just 5 patients from my side. Thanks God.
After 2pm, I handle all my things to my colleague and I back. Unfortunately when i back that time having heavy rain, I wait for 2 minutes after the heavy rain was settle down slightly I slowly walk to my car under the rain. When reaching the car in the staff car park, I realize that I not yet get my lunch yet. I'm so hungry. Thinking what to have for my lunch. I plan to go tesco and straight away I drive to pg tesco before I drive home.


When reach tesco, I miss the asam fish rice in food court tesco, but when I reach there, the food court changed much and my favorite asam fish not there anymore,so bad. Then sudden I feel I prefer to take KFC then I walk from the food court to the KFC as wished.


When get in, I order a snack plate and have a seat next to the door just corner. I start took my lunch and finish up the bread and the mash potatoes. After that due to the plate is just messy with the salad i dislike most, I go counter to have a empty plate. That moment, A "man" say hi to me.
"HE" is the one saying "hi" to me. OMG... suddenly I don't know what to do with "him". He dress differently and I nearly can't recognize "him". When I take the empty plate from the staff I just able to realize that is "him" and he also alone there. "He" asked me is it i'm alone there, I say "yes" then he walk over and take lunch with me there. We chat like usual, but for me, I have slightly "nervous" then usual. God, are u kidding with me??? So coincidence right? As I know that, I'm not the person always will eat alone there and I not even plan to take lunch there alone before and I din't even think that I can off duty so early today. God, What I'm going to do? Are you telling me "he" is the right one? anyways, I'm happy when I meet him and I found we are as usual can talk and chat non-stop. Thanks God, But I hope I can still surrender all this kinda relationship to God, God please lead me, as I follow your way. I still will seeking you 1st as I know that you will bless me the rest that I need when I follow your ways... Thanks God...
After meeting him, as his workers came to find him, he left and I go in tesco to buy the stuff I wish to cook when I off day. Thinking all around the coincidence today, make me feel complicated. (*sigh...).
At night about 9 somethings, I received my friends message that we have a meet in BM as her sister is having tuition at BM too. So we meet at the place I prefer and like the drink most~ Fresh tea~~~
I as usual order the peach green tea and she order yogurt gree tea..
We share and discuss the degree course thing untill chit chat and sharing about spiritual grow things. Is awesome, I feel happy and nice when sharing about that. Unconsciously we chit chat till 12 MN as her father is coming to fetch her and we leave the place.
Very satisfy when sharing kinda thing with each others. I like this kinda sharing much ^^
When back home I received "his" message from what's app... as usual we chat till nearly 1am and nitez...and as usual I will ask him wake me up as the next day i'm not working. I wish to go gym... ^^

07082011 Working Sunday

Today I'm working on Sunday again. Too bad can't join the sunday service this week. Today is my 1st day start on fasting. I hope it success too and early morning when i'm driving I pray for the pastor and all leaders in our church follow the fast and pray activities. Is so satisfy after I can back to prayer again and I hope day by days i can back to heart of worship again and have a good relationship with him again.
Today working colleagues all is good team. I love working with them. Just nice make my sunday much cheer up. Working together happily is what I wish to each and everyday. Thanks God. I really feel that when I pray for the nation and church things I found that God will blessed me even I'm not pray for it. As bible verse Matthew 6:33 ~but seek ye first the kingdom of God,and his righteousness and all these things shall be added unto you.
After working I go food court with my family... OMG... is temptation. I'm fasting, but I still able to control. I just my milo drinks and soup with vege only. My mum order a mushroom soup for me, due to so cheesy, I just try few sips only.
I hope this 40days I can stand with all fasting stuff and keep praying for the nation and churches. Thanks God.
Hmm...What to do with "him" today? I just what's app with "him" and is as usual just have a "free chat" as usual. Thanks God is not that bad as i expected. Hmm today when sis told me that when he know that when my sis saying she want to go watch movie as he invited, he thinking to ask another church sister~ esther to give up her ticket for my sis...OMG... terrible. as well as his brother XL too. "He" don't think to sacrifice "his" ticket for my sis too. My sis just thinking him more self center sometimes. I no comment for that. OMG...Actually my sister just want to fool on him and don't really want to watch that movie also. But this small little action just show that, he is slightly self protect and self center person as we guessing. I think he more on kidding too.
Finally I still strugglling for the decision for the degree courses. What I can do with that? God please lead me...

06082011 Saturday

Today early morning back from penang. I accompany my mother to go breakfast and then go bank to apply a credit card. But unfortunately the bank was closed, and I unable to apply in this week. After that we go Open University at Seberang Jaya to ask some info about my degree courses.

The psychology courses I asked takes me 4 and a half years, OMG... Is out of my expectation. I'm in dilemma situation again. I wish i can study in psychology but I don't want to waste my alternate Sunday to attend the tutorial as I hope I can attend church service.

I think I need to pray before I make any decision for that. I decide to fast as NECF also conduct a 40days fast and prayer from tomorrow onwards. I wish to join too as well I can pray for my future career and my "life".
After settle all things, I'm damn tired. I have my rest time about 2 hours in the afternoon. Later on I have my lunch with my mum in BM tesco.
I just took a waffle as my lunch in Tesco. But i'm satisfied for that. I met Ian baby there too with Chan and Jess.

He is SO CUTE... so lovely. When we met him, he is shouting for "MILK". His father is looking for the water to made the milk for him and his mother is preparing a place for him to take the "milk".
There is no place for feeding the baby in the food area. We just able to put him in the TROLLEY... see the pic down there...IS funny ^^


After shops in the Tesco, I just able to have a quick bath and my sis is rushing me to prepare myself to go penang have dinner before joinning the Gen Xtra Prayer meeting.

We plan to go for the James Foo western food to have dinner, but we the parking is not available for the moment then we just change our plan to have dinner at "No eyed deer" Here is the 1st dish, soup of the day ~~~


Is dessert time ~~~
Coffee pudding....

up side down ice-cream

Down there is the decoration at the wall.... quite attractive and make the feel better

We though we are late to attend the service, but we are not the latest to be there. Others church member cames from church was late then us.

After the prayer meeting on the way back, I have made up my mind. When the prayer meeting is goes on, I feel HS is talking to me. I shoudn't always left my feeling behind. I need to pray, I need to step out my 1st step to love God more and more. I had ignore many important things I need to do in my life. 1st things is share the gospel to my friends and colleague. I know that is gonna be a hard time for me and I will struggle and struggle but as I know God will not leave me just like this. He will be my strength whenever I'm weak. I need to call upon his name, I need to seek him as much as I need him. I hope I can enjoy my fasting prayer for this 40days and to get back my relationship as close as possible with my God. This is all I hope for this moment. God please help me too...I know that I'm not strong enough for that.
Beside, I hope my "sensitive" is getting lesser day by day as "he" is ignoring me as I feel. Really hopes I'm over looked. Honestly I feel bad when I know that when I telling "him" the true feeling "i'm jealous" and emo when argue with him, I'm slowly pushing "him" far away from me by days. Is nothing I can done God, to repair this relationship back to previous. But I just hope that, in future I can surrender this relationship to you,Lord. God please help me to take care of this relationship between me and "him" as I really care much. Thanks God....

林峰&泳儿 - 明天以后（国）

曲/词：伍仲衡/冯颖琪

改编词：姜忆萱

泳:在你的记忆里面有一个我

在你最痛苦的时候陪你度过

难过过了 天晴朗了 我就走

林: 你拯救我的寂寞 我的痛我的梦

在你的面前 我不必保留

还来不及对你说

迟到的我的心动

泳:你的好 你的坏

林: 我的脾气你最懂

泳:我不要你心疼我（林: 我不要你离开我）

合:明天的以后我们会懂

失恋的挫折让人变更成熟

泳:我对你 感觉胜过爱情

林: 因为有你 给我勇气给我用不完的运气

林: 其实也想好好爱你

泳:只怕到最后不小心 让你伤心 （林: 我不怕会伤心）

合: 对不起 我对你 再好再亲密都不能在一起

林: 最后看你在别人怀里

泳:有天我会找到我的唯一（林: 我并不是你的唯一）

合: 还微笑祝福你

林: 你拯救我的寂寞 我的痛我的梦

在你的面前 我不必保留

泳:我从来没对你说

压抑的 我的心动

林: 我的好 我的坏 我的脾气你最懂

泳:我不要你来心疼我

合:明天的以后我们会懂

失恋的挫折让人变更成熟

泳:我对你 感觉胜过爱情

林: 因为有你 给我勇气给我用不完的运气

林: 其实也想好好爱你

泳:只怕到最后不小心 让你伤心 （林: 我不怕会伤心）

合: 对不起 我对你 再好再亲密都不能在一起

林: 最后看你在别人怀里

泳:有天我会找到我的唯一（林: 我并不是你的唯一）

合: 还微笑祝福你

泳:爱情总让人折磨

林: 所以我们才选择

合: 做比情人更好的朋友

泳:我对你 感觉胜过爱情

林: 因为有你 给我勇气给我用不完的运气

林: 其实也想好好爱你

泳:只怕到最后不小心 让你伤心 （林: 我不怕会伤心）

合: 对不起 我对你 再好再亲密都不能在一起

林: 最后看你在别人怀里

泳:有天我会找到我的唯一（林: 我并不是你的唯一）

合: 还微笑祝福你

05072011 Whole day in Penang ^^

Today is my sleeping day. After my night shift, I having my breakfast with my night shift colleague at morning wet market ,Jelutong. At first we plan to have our breakfast at "old town" but due to the "old town" coffee shop not yet open, so we change the location to the wet market.
After breakfast, I went to my colleague house ~Kelly place to have my nap. I very sleep, not waiting for her to finished her bath, I had gone to deep sleep status. When I awake, she is there to do her assignment, wow...she is tough girl.
I share my s"story" to her as well after i wake up. The story is about me and "him" how we know each other, How the complication things I met. I struggle with the problem and so on...she just tell me, I need to settle, but for me, I really no idea how to deal with this kinda relationship. God...Please help me.
After that I bring her to have our "lunch" at my dad's favorite laksa stall. I miss the laksa so much. After the laksa we have a "nest bird taufu" near somewhere at new world park. It's my 1st time to take this kinda food.

That's the place we go for the nest bird taufu hua

Others cookies and biscuit was sold here too.

Here is the "taufu hua"

This is after the nest bird had added in...

After that I rush to greenlane Mcd to meet my X colleague to have a small discussion for our future study. That period I received "his" 1st message for today. "he" is asking me to have a movie on this sunday and again is my working day. This time, i'm so surprising that I didn't have feeling of sadness and disappointed when I know that "he" gonna do this kinda things to me again. Maybe i had use to it. i just reply his message by calling him to invite my sis himself that's it.
When I reach the 1st avenue red box sing k with my X colleague, Kim and ah Ho, I just get his what's app message. Chat with him with what's app for a while he ended his conversation just with "okok" and I told him I will be going to my friends house, he don't even care about. OMG...
My reputation in "his" mind had been spoil after last evening I argue with him. I think he mind what I mention too. Is okay,I'm not going to care it anymore since he is not take care of this relationship much. I just hand it to God, please lead me to the right man and right person. I hope I'm not going to been hurt anymore after "him"
After sing k, I with my X roommate go to my X colleague house~ ah mun to discuss about our future study. I still in dilemma status. Don't know what to choose and what to ask. Just hope the next day when i back to butterworth I can ask for the info in open university for Psychology.
Wow...I'm sleepy right now....now is @ 0347hrs... I just left 2 more hours to sleep....

另一个天堂

另一个天堂

王力宏 张靓颖

你取代 这一秒我生命的空白
问题忽然找到答案 不用解释也明白
你的微笑是一个暗号 我能解读那多美好
梦想不大 想永远停留在这一秒
你为我的世界 重新彩绘

是你带我找到另一个天堂 远比想象中的美
我们怀抱里的这一个天堂 另一个梦想 有无限的快乐
相信你是我的另一个天堂 给的爱多么纯粹
因为你而存在这一个天堂 爱是直达的路线
因为你而存在这一个天堂 只想陪在你身边

我等待 下一刻再相遇的精彩
每天每天越来越爱 逻辑就这么简单
是你转到同一个频道 定位我的幸福坐标
我多渺小 能爱着你才最重要 想把你的明天仔细翻阅
是你带我找到另一个天堂 远比想象中更美
我们怀抱里的这一个天堂 另一个梦想 有无限的快乐
相信你是我的另一个天堂 给的爱多么纯粹
因为你而存在这一个天堂 爱是直达的路线
是你带我找到另一个天堂 远比想象中更美
我们怀抱里的这一个天堂 另一个梦想 有无限的快乐
相信你是我的另一个天堂 给的爱多么纯粹
因为你而存在这一个天堂 爱是直达的路线
因为你而存在这一个天堂 我只想陪在你身边

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03082011

Today I buy this cereal for my fitness purpose...OMG..
Today I found that I slowly can "released" from "him"..I can forget to reply his sms and not waiting for his sms too... And today he as usual sms wake me up, but unsuccessful. I just able to wake up at 10 am...so bad...
I quite worry about the renovation of the house when I knew it is illegal. OMG...can't help,it's done...
Sometimes, I really feel to call "him" not to treat me so good if he is not.going to couple with me, but I can't. I really hope to have kinda relationship with him, so is I choose to been hurt. So I need to accept that. Is my choice, I can't blame other.
Is my responsible after I make this choice. So I have to accept this outcome. Is expected, nothing can change. Just make up my mind not to be hurt and I can also love others and go for my dream. "He" won't be the reason I live, the reason I live is GOD...always and forever... I Love you...

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