Emo night

last night after some argue with my family,damn sad actually. I had told my best friend that i'm facing this kinda problem... I'm moody. I thought they will understand me as well.... but unfortunately some not. But at least i have tell out what i feel and what is my opinion on that. I try to control my emotion, but my tear keep dropping non stop. I keep reminding myself that i have to keep my mood good, I cant distrust them. Finally i go to bed, i hope it make my emotion more stable and can think rationally. My friend told me that i'm no longer mature thinking that what i usually have, it make me sad again, but i admitted that i'm not mature enough to handle this. Every people also have their weaknesses. By the time, I'm not fit to think anymore. I prefer to have a rest...
Today, a patient feel very down. she is very upset. my friends trying to comfort her and couselling her. i join in the conversation with them, i put in what i think and to cousel her as well. that time, i realise that i'm so stupid. It keep reminding myself that every people is not perfect. I'm just a human, I'm not God. i can allow my mood swing sometimes, but not all the way. I try to neutralize back what i think and try to make my self more comfortable. I'm tiring this few days too...all kinda stress comes togather. I wish i can stand it and be more better.., thanks God

Appreciation night

At BERJAYA HOTEL....... ballroom

wow.... delicious


cant stop my saliva from producing...

4 diamond represent to thanks our Tutors ^^

we are group 36/Jan 2009

where i'm looking??? >.< miss it.....

wow........... see also "lao nua" (in hokkien)

wow... choco n cherry.... but i dislike cherry.... :P

funny........ ^^

leader of 4 diamond is giving some speech......

Pose please.............^^

Red as background ...kekez....

who's leg.... is the prettiest??? ^^

"sotong" leg ... ngek ngek,,,,

lift also can take pic........... "keng" haha

we go where also can take pic.... that's our symbol.... ^^

when we see Haagen-Daz... ice-cream.......
how was it???? sure have plenty of saliva dripping on d floor later....kekez

一个30岁男人和一个24岁女人的经典对白~(超感动)~!

烛光晚餐。桌两边，坐了男人和女人。

　　“我喜欢你。”女人一边摆弄着手里的酒杯，一边淡淡地说着。

　　“我有老婆。”男人摸着自己手上的戒指。

　　“我不在乎，我只想知道，你的感觉。你，喜欢我吗？”

　　男人抬起头，打量着对面的女人。

　　24岁，年轻，有朝气，相当不错的年纪。

　　白皙的皮肤，充满活力的身体，一双明亮的，会说话的眼睛。

　　真是不错的女孩啊，可惜。

　　“如果你也喜欢我，我不介意作你的情人。”女人终于等不下去，追加了一句。

　　“我爱我妻子。”男人坚定地回答。

　　“你爱她？爱她什么？现在的她，应该已经年老色衰，见不得人了吧。否则，公司的晚宴，

怎么从来不见你带她来……”

　　女人还想继续，可接触到男人冷冷的目光后，打消了念头。

　　静……

　　“你喜欢我什么？”男人开口了。

　　“成熟，稳重，动作举止很有男人味，懂得关心人，很多很多。反正，和我之前见过的人不 同，你很特别。

　　“你知道三年前的我什么样子？”男人点了颗烟。

　　“不知道。我不在乎，即使你坐过牢。”

　　“三年前，我就是你现在眼里的那些普通男人。”男人没理会女人，继续说。

　　“普通大学毕业，工作不顺心，整天喝酒，发脾气。对女孩子爱理不理，还因为去夜总会找 小姐，被police抓过。”

　　“那怎么……”女人有了兴趣，想知道是什么让男人转变的。

　　“因为她？”

　　“嗯。”

　　“她那个人，好像总能看到事情的内在。教我很多东西，让我别太计较得失，别太在乎眼前

的事，尽量待人和善。那时的我在她面前，就像少不更事的孩子。那时真的很奇怪，倔脾气的我

，偏偏最听她的话。按照她说的，接受现实，我知道自己没用，就努力工作。那年年底，工作上 稍微有了起色，我们结婚了。”

　　男人弹了弹烟灰，继续说着。

　　“那时，真是苦日子。两个人，一张床，家里的家具也少得可怜。知道吗？结婚一年后，我

才给她买了第一枚钻戒，存了大半年的钱呢。当然，是背着她存的。若她知道了，是肯定不让的

。”

　　“那阵子，因为烟酒弄得自己身体不好。大冬天的，她每天晚上睡前还要给我熬汤喝。那味 道，也只有她做得出。”

　　男人沉醉于回忆里，忘记了时间，只是不停地讲述着往事。

　　而女人，也丝毫没有打断的意思，静静地听着。

　　等男人注意到时间，已经晚上10点了。

　　“啊，对不起，没注意时间，已经这么晚了。”男人抱歉地笑了笑。

　　“现在，你可以理解嘛？我不可能，也不会，做对不起她的事。”

　　“啊，知道了。输给这样子的人，心服口服了！”女人无奈地摇了摇头。“不过我到了她的 年纪，会更棒的。”

　　“嗯。那就可以找到更好的男人。不是吗？”

　　“很晚了，家里的汤要冷了，我送你回去。”男人站起身，想送女人。

　　“不了，我自己回去可以了。”女人摆了摆手。“回去吧，别让她等急了。”

　　男人会心地笑了笑，转身要走。

　　“她漂亮嘛？”

　　“……嗯，很美。”

　　男人的身影消失在夜色中，留下女人，对着蜡烛，发呆。

　　男人回到家，推开门，径直走进卧室，打开了台灯。

　　沿着床边，他坐了下来。

　　“老婆，已经第四个了。干嘛让我变得这么好，好多人喜欢我呀。搞不好，我会变心呀。干 吗把我变得这么好，自己却先走了？我，我一个人，好孤单呀……”

　　男人哽咽地说着，终于泣不成声。

　　眼泪，一滴滴从男人的脸颊流下，打在手心里的相框上。昏暗的灯光中，旧照片里弥漫着的是已逝女子淡淡的温柔。

after i read this.... damn damn touch T.T... this kinda man is dinosaur d...haha

　

Future?!?!

Going to graduate soon, an other use stress is getting close to me. Wondering the way to escape or to face it. How to get it right? I cant keep on guessing where i'm be posted to, just can always pray that God lead me to the "RIGHT" place to learn. I like heart, emergency and critical nursing. It's sound interesting to me! But i do not know where am i can be posted, maybe to the ward that i dislike much!!! But i still need to face and cope it, this is the worse i can imagine. If i really can get in the ward that i prefer, also not that easy, i'm still new and fresh, not much experience to handle things independently. I still need guidance from the senior staff. Hope can have someone good to be approach and teach me.
After graduate i have to consider many things, i have to save $ to buy my own car, try out some dance to maintain my health, if my finacial problem is settle down, maybe will apply some english classes to improve my "broken" English. I like to have wider knowledge and skills in my nursing field. If have time, i hope could help up in some of the society like St. John. It sound interesting for me. Beside can help others, i can also upgrade myself and expose myself to wider area. It make my life more meaningful. But come back to my beloved church, i also do hope i can join the worship team again. I think i had pause my serving quite some years, it's time for me to return a favor to God.
I hope to share how God help, lead, and guide me through out this 3 years of trainning. Is not easy to go through this 3 years honestly, plenty of tears, sorrow and hard time to go on, but thanks God i have passed with the strength of God. thanks God...

Pen@ng 1 day TriP

Early morning we get ready to meet at Penang Caltex petrol station and go "yam cha"... although i'm the one driving, still the earliest we reach there.... wahaha... then i went back to my hostel to put my " bao bei" there and join them back at "Bali-bali" there.

wow.... can guess how much we take right? yummi...

Soon after we go penang hill...

inside the so call "cable car" damn hot and packed, but we still manage to take picture. that's call "keng" ah!!! ^^

that's what it look like from outside!!!
go through a cave.... just like the way we pass through when travel to Ipoh but more shorter for sure~~
nice view right? took from the penang hill
walking at the street of Penang hill ^^
advertisement for the pondok telefon there.... haha
waiting at the old letter box there... weird right? ^^

walking also won't forget to pose and take picture!!!
...while waiting to get in the cable car.

lunch time~~
we go "lai lai" kopitiam take our lunch....
damn damn hungry like hell... ordered chee cheong fun, yeong tao hu with yam rice... wow... nice!!!
Get on to next station ... that is " BaBa and Nyonya " world...

~Is not the main door, but have the baba and nyonya style~
~at the living room there~
Nyonya dreSSeS
wow.....so many hanging there ^^
~ many kind of bead ~
use as toilet... yuck!!! >.< at the kitchen play around ^^
wow... nice pose...
like during the Chinese new year... "gong xi fa chai" ^^
can see i'm not siiting on it....scare it can't support my body weight! haha
happy family at Baba and Nyonya world ^^
me and little cute girl acting like the modal behind!!!^^

Stressfull period...........God i really need u!!!

God i really need you.... thanks God u din't forsake me.... i do thanks that u sent angles around to accompany me through out this stressful period.... i try to control my mind.... with the word of God and your strength that u added on me... i trust that i can walk along this period with God peace in my heart.... i can't imagine what will going on if i leave without you Lord...do hope u ans. my prayer... :)

My heavenly father, as i start on my revision, be there with me oh Lord i pray. i bring ur presence with me, i speak ur peace ur grace and ur mercy, and ur perfect order in my life... i thanks all the gifts u have blessed me with, i commit to use them responsibly in ur honour. Give me fresh supply of strength to do my revision, annoint my ideas and energy so that even my smallest accomplishment may bring u glory. Lord when i am confuse, guide me; when i am weary, energize me. when i am burned out, infuse me with the light of the holy spirit. may the thg that i do and the way that i do it bring faith, joy, and a smile to all that i come in contact with today. Lord, i really thanks you for everything u have done,everything u are doing, and everything u are going to do. in the name of Jesus i pray, with much love and thanks giving.... AMEN!!!

Taylor Swift – Love Story

Taylor Swift – Love Story

We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I’m standing there
On a balcony of summer air

See the lights,
See the party
the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
You say hello
Little did I know

That you were romeo you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don’t go, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I’ll be waiting all there’s left to do is run
You’ll be the prince and I’ll be the princess
It’s a love story baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quite cause we’re dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Let’s keep this down for a little while

Cause you were romeo I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
And I was begging you please don’t go and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I’ll be waiting all there’s left to do is run
You’ll be the prince I’ll be the princess
It’s a love story baby just say yes

Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it’s real,
Don’t be afraid
We’ll make it out of looseness
It’s a love story baby just say yes, oh,

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you would ever coming around
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town I said

Romeo save me I’ve been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head, I don’t know what to think
He kneels to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said

Marry me Juliet you’ll never have to be alone
I love you and that’s all the reason for
I talk to your dad go pick out a white dress
It’s a love story baby just say yes

Oh, oh, oh

Oh, oh, oh, oh

Cause we were both young when I first saw you

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nice song....... good for imagination.... hehe ^^

Love Story

nice song.... i like it.... the rhythm and the instruments perfectly match!!!! GOOD!!!

Thank You so much

Today after this camp i do realize something. I'm not a good nurse actually. In the camp, I have a church member accidently injured his hand by a broken umbrella yesterday. His blood oozing out.... That time, i'm not around to help him up... they try their best to use the solution in the 1st aids kit to help him up... After that, his dressing was soaked with blood again... So i use the solution that i not used to use to do dressing for him...do hope that will help him reduce the risk of infection... His hand was swelling and with my knowledge... i just know that ice do help to reduce the swelling. Other than that, i know nothing... i feel useless actually!!! haiz....
Today, i change the dressing for him again, I not realize anything was wrong about the solution. Until my sis asked that why this solution wont help much in healing process, so i do check for the expired date for the solution. I get shock when i found out that the solution was expired long time ago. hmm... this is a big mistake i had made... For a normal person, we do forgive them, but i'm a nurse. I'm not suppose to make this mistake anyway. Maybe routinely i used the solution in the hospital all is up to date because we will check it as routine on the nite duty. But.... i think from today onwards i have to make it as a practice to check up all expired date before apply any medication or serving medication to others.

This afternoon, when i on my facebook, i realize i had received a message from my previous patient. She was one of a nice and friendly patient i meet. She sent me a message through facebook. I get shocked when i read it... it so touch to me and as a encouragement too...
"....Just to let you know, you've made a difference in my life.. maybe you'd think that this is just a minor thing, but it has made a great impact to my life..." when read until this phase make my tear going to drop down... i'm so happy that God make a different in my life. This is what i hope i can make it in my nursing life. Eveyday before going to work, i started with a little prayer "... may the work that i do and the way that i do may bring faith , joy, love and a smile to all i come in contact today..." I do hope my patient can be better under my care and not getting worse after my care!!! Thanks God... it really a best present for me in this Raya...haha... this such a little encouragement do let me feel warm and worth. Thanks u my friendly patient and as my friend too that do share this to me... thanks ya!!!

經典的男女真心話

1.当你收到“你干嘛呢？” 实际上是想说“我想你了”

2.当你收到“呵呵”，多是没笑或者傻笑
3.但如果是“哈哈” “嘿嘿”或者“嘎嘎”，这时你打过去一定是在笑
4.说你“傻瓜” “笨蛋” 其实是关心你，担心你，希望你照顾好自己`
5.如果是问句结束，其实是希望能和你多聊一会儿
6.“哦”多半是在敷衍
7.但如果是“知道啦” “收到” “遵命”之类的则表示比较在意
8.有时劝你忙自己的，其实他口是心非
9.把他的傻事 丢脸的或是失落的事告诉你，是希望你安慰他，开导他，甚至骂骂他
10.主动发给你，说明你在他心目中有一定的分量，一般人不喜欢和不在意的人罗嗦
11.如果给你起外号，是希望你可以记住他多一点
12.“我刚到” “我已经到家咯”说明进屋第一个想到的是你
13.“你到家了就告诉我一声啊” “你到家了没啊？”意思是我要你一定平安，我不许你有事
14.有时不会那么巧就错发给你，可能是他想发给你又实在没东西发，虽然这样很蠢
15.收到“转发2人会幸福哦”，是他觉得这条短信很有意思，但是又不忍心让你转发给10个人，就偷偷的把10改成了2
16.凡是那种“不转发就会不幸”诅咒性质的，他不是没有收到过，但是绝不会转发给你
17.有一阵你没有收到过他的短信，但并不代表他草稿箱里没有
18.如果可能，他晚上不关机就是因为你

女孩子20岁左右是她最美丽的年华。
这时她的心地最善良，她有点成熟，又有点孩子气。
男孩子20左右的时候是他最暗淡的日子，
这时什么都没有，不能独立又不想依赖，
挣扎着彷徨着，寻找着自己的位置，
所以，如果一个男孩子在他20岁左右的时候遇见了与他年纪相当的女孩子，
那一定要珍惜她，
因为这个女孩子是用用自己最美丽的年华陪他走过了最暗淡的日子！女孩只有陪他走过，女孩将永远幸福下去。