22022013

Today I'm really enjoy that, although is tiring and rushing when going out from home.

I watched the movie hotel deluxe, I like the story line of the movie, is funny and I feel great when I know finally the guy realise he love the girl who stay with him all the time. When he drink any good drink or eat any delicious food he will think of the girl. That's sweet. Hihi...

Thanks God, I got a friend who have same dream with me, I know that's not easy to find someone can have same thinking with me right now, I appreciate that.

Before sleep I read the book by Joel Osteen become a better you. Chaper 2 

Give your dreams a new beginning.

I like this chaper, is just like God indirectly talking with me. 

» God wants to do a new thing.

When one door closes,God will always open another. If all the doors close, he will open a window!

All those words encourage me do not give up in future and quit looking the past. 

We were not made to be average; you were made to excel.

» don't let "good enough" be good enough.

For everything that you've lost, everything that's been stolen, everything that's been taken away, know this: God has another plan. He has another seed.

Let the door close completely and step forward into the future God has for you. Quit looking back.

» what happened in your past is not nearly as important as what is in your future.

When I read this verse I nearly cry out.

"» you can't hang out with negative people and expect to live a positive life."

"» your destiny is not tied to the people who walk away from you."

Dont surround yourself with a bunch of "yes-men." On the other hand, don't tolerate a bunch of negative critical "can't do it" people.

» some people you have to love from a distance.

I know God want me to step into.next level, he want me not to look back. Some people may leave in my life, they may not be bad people, just that the season for that relationship is over, I may not understand, but God knows what he is doing. Maybe that person holding me back, maybe he is not a good influence, if I don't keep thing stirred up, God will stir thing for me. If someone leave my life, or relationship is over, no matter who, I learn not to talk them into staying. Let God do the new thing. Understand that my destiny is not tied to the person who walk away from me... Amen. I love this book so much. Maybe in another 10-15years I will thanks God that brought me to this message from this book and when I meet Joel Osteen in heaven, I may thank him too. Love you Jesus, you are my great mighty God.

21022013

Today sudden saw my friends relationship status change, I get shocked and wondering love really can take place so fast.
I really don't understand why some people could take it not serious as that one of the important decision we made in life.
They could change relationship status easily like changing dress. I can't imagine that. It not make sense. God, how come love and relationship is simple just like we choosing a dress. I dislike those who take it not seriously.
After I watch a movie 恋爱季节， I really salute to the guys that keep loving a girl since young. How he make that happen? Is noble, I hope God will choose the right one for me same that too.
Those who can affort to change their relationship at times, I do look down on them, as they not mature enough for relationship yet. God, I know I can't judge, just I nagging on you sometime when I meet someone like this. Is totally freak out.

17022013

Today quite tired actually. Finally get sometime for rest.
Early morning go church prepare to serve, after that lunch gathering with church bro.and sis. and my bff since primary school standard one.
Went for board games on the next, and sudden get invite to have dinner with my church leader and bro and sister once again. Another shown is movie time after the dinner with family. All program continuously happen today, I nearly fall asleep during the shown.
Today when the preacher preach about the purpose of life, what I think for? I'm planning for myself after two years I could be going away from msia. That's my planning, but I hope God is involve in my plan. I learn to obey that. God, please help me and I need to know what's your planning in my life. I need to have a purpose of life that you planned. I will get involve and obey that.
I feel ashame after I had listen to what the preacher preach. I know I'm been trainned in any problem or trouble I faced. I shouldn't complain. I should get what's God's promise and walk by faith through out all the difficulties that God put in my life. I should learn something in any trouble or problems. That's the key of success for those who never give up easily. After that sermons, I feel ashame, I think God want to push me to another level of faith. When I serve I get many new challenge. I shouldn't give up and I need try my very best.
Chester said well done for today although I think I'm not doing the best still. God u really love me and blessed me with a good leader to guide me.
Thanks God.
Praise the Lord.

16022013

So bored. Tomorrow don't know where I should go. Church neither my friends house. My secondary school mate having gathering. Omg... I miss them. But I promised to attend my church CNY event. God, please split me into two.
Tonight I get a message from my group girl, my friend's bf is going to.propose to my friend. So sweet, but I'm sad that I'm on night shift. I can't go anywhere. Don't have the chance to spend time in that moment.
Now is waiting to get another good news from my friend. Sigh... All my friend is slowly get in another level of their life. When is my turn? Haha... Should be long waiting time still.
God, I should focus on your kingdom works. The rest of the things, I give up on you. Cheers... God bless me... XD

11022013

Today is really my full time be a good girl ti accompany my parent in this new year... Really wish tomorrow I'm not working, if not working, I can have my nail polish keep till another day. Praise the Lord. Hahaha... And tomorrow if I'm not working, I can go my lovely pastor house and sent regard. Yeah...
Today the 1st place we go Gurney drive Bali Bali ~ yam char...
Enjoy the breakfaat n brunch with them at one time. After that we go pragin mall. My dad damn happy today, he told me that, that's his birthday, he got a gift from my mum. New shoes... Free movie, free coffee bean... Anything today... Free...
Hahaha... He said that when his birthday also didn't seem to be so happy.lolz...
Tomorrow will be a new start. Start my year with my lovely family. Just nice if my sis is here with us too. Wish to get back good relationship with him. God, please help me. I will remember this verse always."Love God,Love people"
Although is tiring, but is worth and spend my time for them, as I'm not going to have much time for them maybe in future, who knows? God, I will try my best to love them as how you love me.
Remember d verse in Deuteronomy 28:2 And all these blessings shall come upon you and overtake you, if you obey the voice of the LORD your God.
I know you will bless me all I need just what I need to do is obey you.

10022013

Early morning dress up myself to.church. omg... I thought the practice is 7.45am. When reach I'm the 1st person who reach. I'm practicing the intro for the song. But, finally they just wish to use the normal intro with few chord. Hmm... My sleeping time just wasted as I keep listening for the intro last night. The other song that I didn't expect that they want me to use the mandolin to play. Omg... Totally out of my mind. I'm stressful. When Chester told me this, I think I couldn't have my breakfast after that. Just had a cup of coffee and pray in tongue. Really can't concentrate in worship... Omg.... 1st time so stressful, Chester still kidding with me by telling xl to on my keyboard volume louder. Is killing me. Today also my 1st time not listening to the sermons. After Bryan asked me to do dressing for the wound that he knocked the glasses at school, I chit chat with Olivia and Chan at the lobby. After the service, I go for greeting for CNY with my parent. That's the 1st year I'm going alone without my sis. I thought will be so lonely, but the other way round, I talking non stop with my cousin, sharing the experience I got to her as she just deliver her 1st baby. Anxious++ so glad my knowledge could help her. God really blessed me. Got a aunty asking me when is my turn for married, haha... Sudden my mind flash out an good excuse... I'm back to school this year... My degree saving me...hahahaha... Good answer. I'm smart...XD. Total flat out after back from penang. But after bath, thinking of the city hunter this movie, just like recharged, I watch till 2am. Skip the other episode, go for the final one and get the last scene. I love the main actoress well. Both of them is lovely. Their love story is sweet. If that's mine, how great is that dude. XD Is okay, I believe God should be writing a sweetest one for me too. Praise the Lord.

06022013

Today happen is the 1st time when I graduate a child dead in front of me. Quite sad and helpless that moment. That time, I'm panic, I need to call for doctor and call code. Ask for help and finally the child also dead in peace. Announce expired at 0150hrs.
1st in my life I need to enter the dead big book. Omg... I can't accept that. God, what's your plan? I think you should be thinking to reduce the suffer for that child. That's one of the relief for her too.
I slowly learn to be cheerful after that incident...
God, I'm know what's my limitations. I want to be better. My boss want me to present that case, I don't know how was it, but I try my best to do the best for her and for the goodness of another patient too. God, please help me.
Thanks God, today Jillian mummy back here to give us the Chinese orange. I feel great when I heard the news from her that Jillian was fine after operation. Praise the Lord. My mood back again. All of my colleague know I'm in grieving mood after that incident. After u meet Jillian's mother, I feel great. Thanks God. She been saved with my prayer. Thanks God.

05022013

Today thanks God, my car get a free service from the proton service centre. I thought my car having the problem sure need to spend a no. Of $$ to settle it. But thanks God and my dad, I get it for free and with this problem, I could know my car having leakage of the oil tank and it just spend me RM6 for fixing that. Praise the Lord.
Today, I read the verse
Deuteronomy 6: 5 You shall love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your might.
Love God love people, this happen in my mind all the time. I should folllow what's God want me to do. Should obey God's command all the time. Amen. God, please give me strength.

03022013

Today when awake feel damn tired. Last night after listen to the song, I cry out and kneel down and pray God save this child and her family.
I don't know what to do with this. I just know I need to pray.
Today pastor Andrew share about waiting for God's time.
With faith, hope and love we been waiting. Not doing nothing.
When he share about Love, he said he saw a pic In fb that love God, Love people, do something. We can't just waiting without doing anything. We need to take action.
Just like holy spirit talking with me, is time for me to do something for God. I tell God, I hardly share gospel to the unbeliever. When bible study about Romans after service. God take this opportunity to teach me again.
Pastor share about how to seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness. God kingdom mean, what's God authorise. And God's righteousness mean gospel.
Matthew6:33 But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.
If we give our life to let him fully lead us and share his gospel, God will bless us with all our needs.
What's gospel about? That's mean jesus's life, he born, dead and reborn. That's gospel. We been saved by faith that God has given to us and if we receive it, we will get this salvation.
That's simple. From now, that's one of the role and challenges for me to do this. God please strengthen me.
Actually, today I just know some of my brother and sister go for movie during the period of bible study. At 1st I'm wondering why I not even know that and invited, is it some problem between that? But after a second, a verse pop out, that's Romans 8: 28 And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.
If they invited, I maybe didn't heard about this sharing, I miss the chance to let holy spirit talking with me. That's comfort me, and I know my life is not to please the other, is to please God, he is my lover, and I do this is because of love.
Just very sure that God once again asked me to love. Love someone start from your family. He keep repeating this verse. I know God talk to me again and again. I can't ignore it anymore. I try my best, God please help me.

02022013 what the best choice?

Today I face the doubt. I got a patient that's newly diagnose brain tumour, when doctor explain that to her parent, I can feel how's the sad feeling from them. Is hard to make the decision.
To do the operation or not, is not a simple decision. Is life concerning choice. If without the operation, the surviving rate is miracle. If with the operation, that's high risk they need to bear the concequences of the risk of operation. What's the choice.
When I drive home, I ask God what should I do... Beside praying, I got no idea. But after the working adult gathering, the sharing just like God talking with me. My doubt is been solved. I should not be doubt, must trust God with all my heart. I should ask God what I can do, I should take the 1st step to share gospel to their parent.
Today the working adult gathering just like answering my question. Totally touch my heart. Holy spirit keep talking with me. Is not coincident. Is God's plan, God want this sharing to inspires me. I should take the move. I shouldn't doubt.
I learn something today, I feel God's present even in a small little gathering. Thanks God.